How does time pass so slowly when I'm not with him. I don't think it's fair and hopefully we get to spend more time together hoping he won't feel like it's to much.
The past 2 weeks felt like years and I have been in a bad mood for a couple of days now. I been trying to act normal whenever I'm talking or texting with Chris because I don't want to make him feel trapped or something.
I have been trying not to tell him how much I really miss him just to make sure not to smother him, I don't want to make him run away. He said he missed me once so that really made me happy but I also know how much he needs his space and alone time.
Filming has been a little difficult because I'm really distracted and I'm messing up so much what nobody is used to. Different members of the SVU cast had tried to talk to me but since the whole thing between me and Chris is a secret I couldn't let anything out.
Of course I had talked to Taylor, Steph and Khloe but they all said I was just making myself go crazy. I have to admit they are probably right but I just can't stop the brain noises sometimes.
I'm sitting in my chair reading lines for my next scene as Jamie comes running "Hey Y/N omg have you seen this?"
"Seen what?" I ask her curiously. Jamie hasn't been a part of the cast for long but she fits right in with us and we definitely became pretty close.
"You know that guy you did a show with for Marvel?" She asks with a big smile on her face the one she always has.
"Who Sebastian?" I ask trying to figure out who she is talking about.
"No the other one Evans."
"Yeah what about him?" Trying to sound cool not wanting to show the big smile that wants to form on my face hearing his name.
"I just read this article about an interview he did and he basically said he was off the market, as like he has a girlfriend but he is keeping it private."
"Okay." I say trying to compose l, keep calm and not panic.
"Did you know about that? didn't you guys hangout at Chi's birthday?" She questions me and I need to think fast.
"Well yeah buy he didn't tell me anything about a girlfriend. What does it say?" I try to sound not so eager.
"Nothing much, just that he misspoke and that the interviewer caught it and wouldn't let it go eventually Chris just said that he does have a girlfriend but that they want to keep it private."
"Well that does sound like Chris hopefully they can come out on their own terms when they are ready."
Ugh I hate lying but I know I'm doing the right thing. I'm only a little surprised Chris didn't mention anything yesterday after that interview although he might be waiting for us to have a call and doesn't want to do it over text.
"Yeah true it's not easy for any of us." Jamie says.
"Alrighty I need to go to my scene see ya later Jamie." And I walk away.
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I was home at a normal time so I didn't have to rush my shower and all before my call with Chris.
I have settled on my couch with a cuppa watching some show I didn't really needed to pay attention to when my phone lights up with a video call from Chris. I awnser it and I see him appear with a silly adorable face.
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