As He Locks His Lips With Mine (Chris Evans X Reader)

I hate goodbye

Unfortunately tonight Chris will leave again and I'm really sad about it and I can feel he is too.
The way he was packing his bag I could see it, so unhappy dreading putting anything in his bag.

We had such a great time together and from Valentine's day everything was perfect just spending it pretty mundane and I loved it.
I usually would get so bored but there isn't anyone else I would like to be around and do all these normal things with.

My interview yesterday was cancelled because of a flue outbreak and nobody could take over and I didn't mind at all because I could spend that time in Chris his perfect arms.

To be honest I'm not sure how long I could keep doing this.
Leaving for filming isn't a great feeling but is not as bad as leaving to go home because I feel like home is around him.
I know I'm going to New York tomorrow anyway but still ugh ......... since when am I so sappy this man got me hooked and I'm doomed.

"So April second you'll come to Boston yea?" Chris asks me as I lay in his arms my head on his chest hearing his heartbeat changing rythm.

"Yes driving out first thing in the morning." I decided driving would be a better idea for me apposed to be seen flying to Boston I know we are not in anyone's radar but we like to keep it that way.

"Good I'm excited T-minus 43 days." He says happily and then pouting.

"You're so cute when you pout." I say as I kiss his pouting lip and I nuzzeld back in his arms.

"I enjoy this you in my arms" as he kisses the top of my head.

"Me too so much I would love to be duct taped stuck to you" and we both laugh.

We skipped dinner both of us not hungry at all because of what is coming.
Everytime we looked in each other's eyes we could see the pain so we spent the last hours wrapped up in each other's arms as close as possible until his alarm on his phone went off and we both knew it was time.
I didn't want to look at him because I was already failing at holding back tears and I didn't want to make it more difficult for him.

Eventually I got up from him and we walked silently to the front door.
All his stuff was already in the car and Taylor was ready outside waiting to drive him to the airport.

After he puts his shoes on he grabbs my hand pulls me into his chest for a hug "I hate goodbye" he says and I hear his sad tone what is definitely not helping me keep my tears in.

"I'm going to miss you" I say leaning up my toes and then planting a kiss on his lips.

"I'm going to miss you too babe so so much" he cups my face and gives me a kiss that make me feel he doesn't want to let me go at all.

"You have to go Chris I'm sorry but if this takes any longer I can't hold back me crying" he looks at me and I can see his eyes are getting watery.

"One day I'll just take you everywhere with me and we don't have to do this ever" hearing that makes me smile and him seeing thayt makes him smile too.

"Maybe I'll just take you everywhere with me" I say with a wink.

"I don't care either way as long as this doesn't happen" he gives me another kiss and we let go.
He opens the door and gives me one more kiss before he walks out and gets in the car.

I can't deal with seeing him drive away so I close the door and go hide in my bed letting the tears fall

I'm happy I had all my stuff packed already so that I didn't need to do any of this now and I could just sulk in my bed.

We texted a little bit until he had to board the plane and that meant that I needed to get a couple of hours sleep so that I wouldn't be to exhausted arriving in New York tomorrow and start shooting the last episodes of the season.