Give me love

Secrets

We sat around the fire warming up. Jack handed each one of us a sandwich & a cup of coffee & Lillian helped him. Till now, I can't get over the fact that I'm gonna sleep with Connor in the same tent tonight.

"I'm really tired you guys, I'm gonna go get some sleep now" Lillian said tiredly.

"Me too" I said yawning & getting up from my spot.

"Good night, cuppycake" he smirked.

"Night, Connor" I said with a smile plastered on my face.

Did he just call me cuppycake? I'm pretty sure that I looked like a tomato from blushing.

Connor's POV

Jessica just blushed on the nickname I gave her. I wanted to go after her & talk to her but I decided against it. I had to wait, she ain't going nowhere.
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After an hour of talking & playing truth or dare we were tired as hell. I took off my shirt & entered the tent.

Holy Mother Of Cracker.

Jessica wore a crop shirt with really short shorts. Damn. She looked so hot. Imagine the things you could do to her, my subconscious added for me. Not now Connor. I slowly leaned next to her. She slept peacefully. I couldn't help but remove a loose strand of her hair which was on her eyes. I was so tired that I felt into the land of dreams so easily.

Jessica's POV

I woke up to the sun that burnt my face & looked at the empty place next to me.

Wait, what? Where's Connor? Did he sleep outside so that he wouldn't have to sleep next to me?

The thoughts kept spinning in my head until I decided to go out & look for him.

And here he was sitting on the ground looking at the direction of the sun which was about to rise.

"Morning" I said with a smile.

"O-h... morning" he stared at me blankly.

"Can I- sit?" I stuttered.

"Yeah sure" he replied smiling "are you mad at me? I mean... for the calling you cuppycake last night" he looked at me with concerned eyes.

"No, I actually liked it"

"Good. I thought I upset you or something"

After a long moment of silence, I broke the silence.

"Can I ask you a question?" I asked curiously.

"Yeah sure cuppycake" he giggled & I giggled back.

"So... um... ya know you're always kinda alone or something so I just wanted to know why?"

I looked back at him. He looked so worried. Aghh. Stupid Jessica. I just got him mad at me.

"Sorry I know it's non of my business but it's okay if you don't wanna-" I was cut off by Connor.

"Hey, it's okay. Um... can you keep a secret?" He asked & I just nodded my head.

"Alright so... Look last year when I was 16 it was the first year for me to drive so ya know I was pretty much happy. On 28th of March mum wanted to go to grocery shopping & I was like wow mum is gonna be so proud of her son" he said looking at the sun which was rising & continued "but it all turned out that I killed my mum" he said with tears that started brimming down his eyes. I looked at him confused with a worried face.

Did he just say that he killed his mother?

"What? How?" I asked confusedly.

And then he looked back at me while taking a deep breath.

"In a car accident. I was the one who was driving the fucking car. I killed my mum. I'm so fucking stupid. She's really gonna be so proud of her fucking son that actually fucking killed-" he was almost shouting & he seemed really so angry but I cut of him off by placing my hands on his mouth.

"Shh..." I whispered. "Hey look at me" I said pulling his chin so that he could look at me. "You didn't kill her, okay? It was just an accident & yeah I'm pretty sure that she's so proud of you"

"But-"

"No But's or If's it was just an accident, okay?"

"Okay" he said wiping away his tears.

"If you ever needed someone to talk to always remember that I'm here for you & you can count on me to keep a secret"

"Actually that's not the only reason why I'm like that"

I looked at him with what-do-you-mean face.

"So here's the deal. After my mum's death I was so upset that I couldn't face anyone, especially my dad. He just made things worse but then I met this girl who completely changed my life back then. She helped me to get over my mum's death & she was there whenever I needed her. But then, one day it all changed. I found out that she was cheating on me with some college boy & I was like a toy to her. So since then I never hooked up with any girl & all I know is that love is a back stabbing bitch that doesn't even exist"

At the moment, I felt really so bad for him & all I wanted to do was to hug him but it actually wasn't the right time. It would be such an embarrassing moment if i did so.

"What's her name?"

"N-" Connor stopped when he saw Jean coming towards us.
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A/N: Happy Saturday cuppycakes 🙈❤️💕
Cliffhanger again. Cliffhangers are my thing 😹. I'm really so sorry guys but Chappie 6 may be late a lil bit because I've got an exam week.
Hope that you liked the Chappie.
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Goodnight cuppycakes ❤️😊.