My heart burns there too

Chapter 1

I woke up energized and ready to take on the day, i turned to look at the clock and immediately jump out of bed as i saw that the clock read 9:40, fuck i said remembering that today would first show with the band. I started walking towards my closet and grabbed whatever you could, i walked out to the restroom and take a quick shower. After i showed i hurried to get dressed since i was running late and i still needed time to get my stage outfit on. I ran out of my house and into the car and drove off to the venue.
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When I arrived I practically jumped out of the car and pulled on a mask, the lead singer gave me the previous night, so i would have my face hidden from the rest of the ghouls. I walked towards the back door and met with a security guard who didn't look happy to be there for shit, I couldn't blame him it was hot as shit outside. I showed him my ghoul pass and walked through the door, and i was un-welcoming greeted buy other dudes that were in a huddle across the room, "well they totally don't look suspicious at all" i thought to myself. I looked around to see if i could find the lead singer but i didn't have any luck on finding him, which was pretty fuckin annoying. I just stood off in a corner waiting for him, when i did see him he walked towards the group huddled in the opposite corner of the room. Then he turned to look at me and started walking in my direction. "Hey, how are you feeling?" He said in a cheerful tone "I'm alright, a bit nervous" i tell him with pure honesty "as expected, I'm guessing the others aren't helping buy just staring at you are they? He said with the same tone voice "not at all but i will manage" i said to him "lets get you to my changing room since you most likely wont want to change in the same room as the ghouls" he said with a smile, and with that we were on our way.

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I looked over to see if Tobias was looking my direction before removing my shirt since i had a gross about of scars on my chest and back, mostly from being stupid and getting in fights or toxic relationships, but it didn't really matter. They were mostly my fault for getting into the trouble. I put the button up shirt on only to find out it was too big for me i looked at the size and it was a medium, i didn't want to mention it to Tobias bit he looked over and saw it. "Hey i don't know about you but that shirt looks a bit big on you" he said with a chuckle "yeah its a little big but i can make it work" i said with a small smile. I was about to button it up when we heard a knock on the dressing room door. "Hey toby i think there was a mistake in the dressing rooms, i got the wrong size shirt" some guy from the other side of the door said "is that so?" Tobias asked smirking, he opened the door and let the other man in "what do i do about the shirt?" The other man asked confused. He didn't realize i was there till Tobias walked away from him. "Oh shit I'm sorry" he said looking away "its fine" i said not really caring until i noticed that i hadn't buttoned up the shirt "what size did they give you?" I asked the other guy, he looked at me and then looked back and the shirt "they gave me a size small" he said in a low voice "do you happen to be a medium?" I asked the guy and he seemed to perk up a bit "yeah i am, why do you ask?" He said looking at me again. "I think i have your shirt" i said looking straight at him "oh shit i think your right" he said with a chuckle, i was about to take off the shirt when I remembered the scars that i kept forgetting about. "Do you mind turning around?" I asked the other guy and he handed me the shirt and turned around i quickly removed the bigger shirt and replaced it with one that was given to me i button it up and tapped the guy on the shoulder, which caused him to turn around. "Thanks, and here your shirt" i said handing the shirt to him. "Thanks you" he said with a small smile and threw continued to throw the shirt on. Nothing really stood out from the other man, he didn't seem to have any tattoos, or any type of scar on his arms and chest an back. His face was also covered so that didn't help, I wasn't complaining i too had my mask on but still.
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After the whole shirt fiasco, all three of us left the dressing room and went back to the previous room backstage. "Alright boys, we have exactly 5 minutes before we go on stage." Tobias said to us "i want you guys to go out there and have a good time, if you mess up its fine just try to not make it obvious and well be fine." He said with a smile, and with that we made our way to the stage. We got into our positions and just waited for the backstage crew to finish up, and when they did the song ashes started and the curtain fell revealing us to the the fans, we stood still as the song played behind us.