My heart burns there too

Chapter 16

Umm Tw i don't remember what the TW is but just be aware. Also uh your gayyyyyyyy (same) play the song when you get to 🦖
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In the shower i had an epiphany, did Tobias like me? After all we did share a kiss. But why would he like me? There is no reason for him to fall for me I'm just an average guy. Honestly there is nothing special about me, so why? Why me. When i got out if the shower i noticed the suit i bought along with other things, i guess Tobi put them there for me, i should thank him then get ready i don't want to make us late. I just wrapped the towel around my waist and walked out of the bathroom, hey Tobi where did you go? "Kitchen" i started making my way towards the kitchen still naked in only a towel covering my lower half of my body. "Oh shit hey, um you do realize that you are only in a towel right?" Yeah i know i am, anyway thank you for putting my clothes in the bathroom for me I appreciate it. I said hugging Tobias from behind due to him washing the dishes, something i never understood why he washed them if he could easily hire someone to do it for him,"mr you need to go change before someone ends up coming over and seeing you half naked in my kitchen." How about you stop worrying no one is going to come over. "Hey guys oh shit, did i walk in on something?" Fucking hell jutty do you not know what knocking is?! "I did knock but no one answered the door so I opened it myself, i didn't mean to ruin y'alls moment" jutty get the fuck out we need to get ready for the dinner. "Ok ok fine, bye love birds" that bitch i said while jutty left the house. "I told you didn't i?" Shut it i say with a chuckle, fine i suppose i can go change now. "Good your dripping water everywhere, go dry off and change" yeah yeah fine, i say walking back to the bathroom to dry off. I really have to stop speaking so soon before i jinx myself. It was 2:30 and i still wasn't done getting ready my stupid fucking hair was being so undeceive it was so annoying, it was almost like I wasn't meant to go with them. I just decided to slick my hair back and call it a day. (Tobias had his hair slicked back in an interview i just went with it) i grabbed the moco de gorila and put it in my hair, by the amount i put it should stay put for at least 7 hours. "Hey are you done? Its almost 3" huh oh yea I'm done lets go I'll drive. "Are you forgetting something?" No? Why, "i think you are missing something it goes on your head?" Oh my mask? I'm going to leave it home, why would i take it with me? "Are you really asking me that?" Yes? Oh right never mind. "Thought so, are we taking my car or your bike?" The bike of course, what type of question is that? We started walking outside, hey tobi can we talk before we go? "Sure what about?" The other day when we kissed, do you uh do you like me or something? "Oh about that I'm sorry, i didn't mean for it to happen it just happened. I mean yes i like you but it wouldn't go anywhere." You never know Tobi you never know. And with that we both got on my sports bike and took off, the drive wasn't really far it was about 30 minutes, but i always tend to go over the speed limit so it tool 10 minutes to drive and some how we made it there at 3:29 we were the first ones to arrive. "Should we go get a reservation?" Yeah come on, "hello how many?" I believe its 8 of us right? "Yeah 8" "alrighty follow me, to your table" we followed behind them like lost puppies until we got to our table. "Here you are sir's, can i get you both anything to drink?" I'll take a Modelo And for my buddy here get him whatever he wants. " oh uh i would like a Cēsu alus" "alright so to make sure you want a Modelo and a 'Cēsu alus', correct?" Yes that is correct, "perfect I'll have that right out then." Tobi what do you think of playing a little game with our guest? "I suppose sure what game would we be playing?" Just a trick that will be harmless nothing will go to far i hope, but we can make the whole group think we are madly in-love with each other? "Sounds like a solid plan sure why not" cool lets see if the plan itself will work which I'm sure it will considering Swiss probably already told Rain, and Rain most likely told Earth, thats a whole ass train haha. "It wont hurt anyone, since its a harmless joke. Which is a good thing in our case," obviously I'm only doing this stupid game because I'm but what harm comes out if this? I think to myself I couldn't agree more, although it does remind me of shit that happened in my past. "Which is? You don't have to tell me if your not comfortable." Its a long ass story if I'm being honest with you, " i don't give a shit honestly, if you want to tell me the whole thing i will sit here and listen to you tell the whole story" alright fine, you better buckle up because this will be an interesting story.  Okay so back in 2015 when i moved to where i now live. My father and his stupidity decided that it was okay to cheat on my mother with some skank, and this was on a family member's birthday. I was super young at the time but I remember shit like if it replays over and over, my dad had gotten super drunk and refused to give my mother the keys to the car, and so my uncle slashed the tiers to make sure my father didn't drink and drive. My parents got into an argument about it infront of everyone. My dad got up and started to walk away from the party and i ran after him with tears in my eyes slowly falling i begged my dad to take we with him I refused to let him go alone, but they pulled me away i started sobbing right there and then. My uncle Arnold took us home that night, i couldn't eat, or sleep i was just a mess. It was 10 month that passed by since i had heard from my dad, and one day when i came back from school he was there on the couch. I hated him. He left me alone. Then everything went back to normal. Or so we thought, the slut came to my house and tried to take my dad from me, i couldn't bare the fact that he would leave me again so i stood there the front door was open i felt like crying. But there was no tears left for me to cry. The bitch told my dad to close the door she didn't want me to be "exposed to this behavior" so instead of doing what a normal child would do and sit there and start sobbing. I grabbed a beer and drank the whole thing  by the time my parents came back inside my mother ordered my father to pack his shit and leave, she didn't want anything to do with him anymore and neither did i a few months had gone by and not a word about my dad turns out a 4 months prior to my mum kicking him out they talked it out like adults and he came back, and one day out of the blue. He came home drunk and yelled at me, he parked his truck and that bitch came to my house. And picked him up, but before she got the chance to leave I grabbed the biggest brick i could find laying around in my yard and i chucked that shit to her car. Her wind shield was fucked after that, they didn't even tell me anything. But before that happened my mother had hit my dad with my belt after my dad hit my mother. And still he hasn't moved back. And i think its for the best. As much as it hurts i couldn't afford to get more fucked up in the head than I already was at the time through what i did growing up with an alcoholic father was already to much to deal with, although throughout the time he does this thing, when he fucks up he fucks me up more in the head he, buys me expensive things even though i don't want them. He bought me an atv for Christmas one year it was a yellow one, i had it for a year or so. I lost the key to it around 4 months after i got it. He yelled at me and said things i wont ever forget its to the point when he says things they get engraved into my head and they replay over and over again in my head at night. And then after that he took it to a mechanic  and got it hot wired so we could use it again, then he bought a replacement key for it. After he yelled at me for losing that key be bought me another atv this time it was a black and its the newest one they had at the shop when he showed me it i acted happy as to not bother him nor piss him off. Now come one day he came over to my house and said for everyone to get dressed that we were all going out to eat breakfast together, i said okay and we took off everything was fine until a couple hours after we got home he sent me to the store with my mother to grab something to cook for lunch. And when i got back he told me to put my dog inside and i asked why he said he was going to take the black atv out and i asked why and he said " can you fucking worry about what the fuck i told you to do?" I panicked and ran inside and grabbed my dog from the backyard, mind you this was years ago, so to me its nothing but a scab i tend to pick at from time to time. But yeah thats the most fucked up shit i still have engraved in my head. "For fuck sakes I'm so so sorry you had to deal with that shit growing up, did you ever have a good time with your dad?" Honestly no I'm pretty sure there hasn't been a good memory i have, with him, i mean when i was younger he made me drive up a 20ft hill with him on the atv's but thats it. "Thats the only good memory!?" Yeah pretty much, i mean i don't really blame him for being the way he is to be fair his father was a massive dick he practically slept with every woman in Mexico and plus my dad only got one hug from his father. Then his father disappeared into thin air only calling my father when he needed money or something like that, but the alcoholic part is his mothers and his fathers fault. They let him drink at 8 years old. But it was his choice of continuing the path he went through, but there was someone who got me through all the tough times, and rocky bumps in the road. "And they are?" Her name is Night, she is the best friend I could've ever wished for. She was always there for me when i needed to vent and or i was there for her. Her eyes were winter fire, they were easy to get lost in sometimes if you stared at them for too long, not to mention her personality, she was patient, and calm and easy going. She was the best thing that ever happened to me. She made me feel love the way I hadn't felt before, she made me forget the bad things that went through my mind. But yeah she's the best i wish i was able to see her often but she herself was in her own group of ghouls. "There is other group of ghouls?" Yeah they are like us but they are in the 4th era. "There is more than 1 era?" Yeah we are the second era. "Why hasn't Nihil mentioned this to us? Because sister bosses his ass around and sister told me not Nihil. If it was up to Nihil sister wouldn't have told me. "Oh look who's here" where the fuck is my beer I've been waiting for 30 minutes now. "Omega is here and so is the rest of the guys." Let the games begin then love, "agreed let them begin." "Sorry for the wait, but here is both of your beer's."  Thank you, "are we missing out?" Nope you are just in time Swiss, "thank everything unholy, i cannot miss the best part of hanging with friends" "i agree with Swiss, drinking and hanging out is fun" yeah I suppose your both right.
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{POV switch}
It feel's awkward, like something happened between Zephi and Tobi. Or am i just paranoid? They didn't have it did they? They wouldn't right? I mean isn't it obvious i like him? What do i care I'm married, who am i kidding i lost feelings for Blaze a long time ago.... I'm in love with...Zephi. And i have been since i met him. Hold the fuck up why is Tobi leaning against Zephi like that? So everyone this is my Husband Blaze. "Nice to meet you Blaze, my name is Swiss, and this is Rain and that's Earth" "its a pleasure to meet you three" "like wise" "so um Ezra tell's me you guys are starting tour again in September correct?" "That's correct for a hog" "Zephi shut the fuck up, before Tobi hits you in the back of the head" "i doubt it, he wont do anything, is that correct Tobi?" "That is indeed correct" anyways lets change the topic shall we? So it's been a while since we all sat down together and had a meal so lets enjoy it yes? Did Zephi just grab Tobi's hand? This is going to be a long dinner. "Zephi i swear to satan if you don't stop playing footsies with me i will murder you." "Mhm sure,test me" "alright boys thats enough. Behave yourselfs" "are you boys ready to order?" I believe so.
20 minutes after they order (rain was being picky again)
Okay seriously What's,it with Zephi and Tobias? One moment i look away and they are practically making out. Did i miss my chance? Did i fuck up when i let Blaze back into my life? I should've told him before it was too late. After we ate i reached for the bill but Zephi grabbed it first. Hand it here Z I'll be paying, it was my idea to invite you all out. "To late my card is on the bill and the lady already took it." How much did it cost? I'll repay you right here. "Don't worry about it its on me" Zephi i swear to god if you don't let me repay you i will slit your throat. "Good luck with that I'm-tall as fuck and your short." Bitch try me. Everyone at the table was laughing except Blaze. I forget how much of a bum he is. I didn't miss that at all. I wish he never came back...I wish he stayed away. After we grabbed our belongings we started walking outside and saying our goodbyes. But i didn't want to say good bye to Zephi, i wanted to go with him. (🦖)So fuck it I'm going to. "Well this is goodbye Omega." No it's not just give me a second. It started raining, and Blaze was yelling at me to get into his car. "Ezra lets go its poring out here!" No! I don't want you nor do i want to go with you. Everyone just looked at me shocked but Blaze looked at me like if he was ready to swallow me whole. "Excuse me, what did you just say to me?" I said i don't want to go with you. "You have no clue what you are saying Ezra, lets go" NO i don't want to. I....I want a.... DIVORCE. I don't love you like i used to. I haven't for a long time now, i love someone else someone who actually cares about what i want to do and weather or not i keep shit fans give me. "Get your fucking ass in the car, your drunk" Im not drunk i drank water the whole fucking time fuck off. "I said get the fuck in the car. Or so help me god." "You wont be doing shit bitch." "You better shut the fuck up, before i snap those arms of yours." "Try me but and see what happens to you, actually wait if i beat your ass right here right now you leave omega alone and never reach out to him again, but if you win you can do whatever the fuck you want deal.? "Whatever you want man you will lose." Zephi thats a fight you don't want to pick i swear. "To late," Blaze just punched the shit out of Zephi to the point his mask fell off. But he still got up. This man could take hits left and right and still get back up no matter what. "Omega we need to stop this before Zephi knocks out Blaze" i agree but there is no way to get them apart without getting caught in the mix. Fuck it we have to..... i spoke too soon blaze was on the floor half conscious, blood was everywhere. You could hardly see any on their faces. "I win bitch, get fucked" "fuck you, keep him he's useless." "Bitch if you don't shut the fuck up i swear to satan." Zephi your face idiot, "i don't care about my face, id rather keep you safe then worry about a little blood." Zephi I'm sorry, I'm sorry about earlier. I should've said that i didn't like him that way the truth is that I'm in love with you. And i have been since i met you but i was being a stubborn asshole about it. But its too late for that. Your with Tobias. " you actually believed that? We aren't together it was just a joke, we thought it would've been a funny joke to do since Swiss walked in on me hugging Tobi while i was half naked. We had came up with it when we got here" oh. I thought... before i could say another word Zephi kissed me. HE FUCKING KISSED ME, his lips where soft like i had imagined them being but they were covered in blood. I didnt mind since i had been longing for this moment for forever.....

To be continued