Afterglow || Tommy Lee

16. I'm A Man Of Wealth And Taste

Hello again my dudes!

Alright, so... how are you all enjoying our love story so far? And what a love story it is, am I right?

I just wanted to jump in here again since Andi doesn't mind. You don't mind, do ya babe? Babe? No? Ok good haha.

Fuck it, I'm just gonna get this outta the way first cause I need to get this off my chest.

Fuck Chris Cornell.

Yea I said it. I'm pissed and I don't give a shit. Like what the fuck dude? Why you tryin' to start shit? You have no fuckin' idea of the situation. For one thing, I pleaded no contest to the charges of spousal abuse because the cops had found my guns in my safe - which I don't have anymore by the way, learned my lesson there - but I pleaded no contest cause it would've been way worse because of my guns that they found. Everything was just all bad back then, and how many fuckin' times do I need to apologize for it? I did my time and that's it.

I mean it though, fuck you dude. You're just pissed cause I got your girl now and you can't fuckin' stand it. But you messed that up with her long before I was even in the picture, so fuck you.

Ok, now that that's outta the way... Oh my fuck dudes! Fucking crazy right? She said yes! She fuckin' said yes!  I asked her to marry me and she fuckin' said yes. I mean... fuck dude. I know, I know, I move fast, but man she is the fuckin' one. She is it.

Andi is the absolute love of my life and I couldn't fuckin' wait to make her my wife - yes I know that rhymed haha. She didn't even hesitate, she just said yes. Like there was no " uh Tommy this is too fast" or " I think we should wait'' she just jumped right in with me. I got so caught up in her being silly and singing to me - Queen of all things like, fuck this woman suprises me in ways that I never thought she would - I just couldn't hold back anymore and I fuckin' blurted it out and asked her and she fuckin' said yes. She truly brings out the impulsive side in me. Well ok, I've always been that way but I swear it's amped up like a thousand times more when I'm with her. She just makes me want to just go full on and who gives a shit - which is how I ended up tattooing her lips on me. Fuck names, get your womans lips tatooed on you and man that will definitley impress her, trust me haha.

I had planned to ask her like, weeks before and I was gonna take her out somewhere romantic and get down on one knee... y'know the whole bit- I just fuckin' got all in my head about it and just asked her to move in with me instead.

Once she did move in with me though that was like a whole other level. We didn't have to travel back and forth to see each other anymore. She's the first beautiful thing I see when I wake up and the last thing I think about before I fall asleep and I want that with her forever.

She was so amazing with my boys, like, they loved her instantly and she loved them right back. Seeing her with them, making them laugh, making sure they are taken care of like, as if they were her own was just incredible. The connection between them was instant. I knew they were gonna love her.

Same with my mom, I knew she was gonna take one look at Andi and be like 'Tommy don't fuck this up' - well ok maybe not in so many words but my mom is a pretty good judge of caracter, I mean she has hated a lot of the women I've been with. She loved Heather... and Pam she was like, fine with but that had more to do with the fact that Pam and I got married without telling anyone. But Andi, she like, just embraced her right away. She was so happy that I was finally happy after so many years of fighting and trying to keep my family together and Pam not interested in working anything out and going back to her old boyfriend while I'm sittin in jail.... fuck me... Fuckin' broke my heart.

But there's nothing I can do. I can't make someone love me if they really don't love me anymore. So I just worked on myself and vowed that the next chick that I fall in love with is going to be like - not in a bad way - but like a nobody. Someone who isn't like crazy famous with the paparazzi following us everywhere and shit cause I just can't fuckin' do that anymore. I just can't. I have enough of it on my own still and it has calmed down a fuckload but there's still the odd paparazzi straggler that will somehow get tipped off at where I'm headed, where I'm playing, eating y'know... I'm just so fucking thankful that that didn't discourage Andi at all, 'cause the last thing I want is for her to feel uncomfortable being out in public with me when we aren't working together. And when we are working together, it's like the fuckin' best thing in the fuckin' world.

I had never worked together with a chick I was dating, or any of my ex wives before her and it is such a game changer. She obviously sticks to most of the managerial stuff, since that's what she does but when I'm working in my studio, she would like, come in and hang out with me, which surprised me at first since I never had that before. Music just wasn't any of my ex's language, and so it was such a fuckin' turn on that Andi wanted to hang out with me in the studio. Even if I had an idea about something, she encouraged me to tell her about it and would actually help.  I found it so fuckin' sexy that she would inspire me in ways that I didn't think I could go with a song or a simple melody, a lyric or an unworked idea.

She is so intelligent, beautiful, and strong. She knows this business inside and out, and she's so assertive but like can be so adorably shy and awkward, and fucking hilarious too. We even have our own like, weird language with each other. Like, I'll say something to her in my greasy greek guy accent just being stupid to make her laugh and she comes back with this terrible irish accent that makes me laugh everytime cause it so would sound like her if she had one.

I just wish she could've met my dad. Man, my dad would've loved her. I can just see him telling me not to screw this one up and I know he would see in her what I see and just love her to pieces.

Ok, I'm outta here for a little bit, but don't worry dudes, I'll be back.

P.S: I miss you dad, and trust me I found a really good one this time and I promise I won't screw this up. Not in a million years.