Afterglow || Tommy Lee

46. Just What I Needed

San Diego California, August 25 2004

"Baby, this is amazing, why the hell are you freaking out?" Tommy says to me through my cell phone's speaker as it sits on the passenger seat of the Nissan rental car.

"'cause I've never been asked to do an interview before with a whole photoshoot to go with it. I don't even know why they asked me to be a part of it in the first place," I say as I come up to the last stop light before turning into the parking lot of the large warehouse building where the photo shoot and interview was about to take place.

I had flown in from New York from a gig with Velvet Revolver, and basically threw in my 2 luggage bags into the back to make it to the interview and photo shoot on time. Then after I'm done, I gotta find a hotel to stay for the night, then back to New York it is.

"Baby are you crazy? Why wouldn't a magazine - especially Blender magazine - want to do a piece on you? I mean, look at everything you've accomplished baby, it's about time someone paid attention to you. I mean I've been saying that since I met you but what do I know?" Tommy says excitedly on the phone which makes me laugh. He's so fucking adorable.

A representative that was at the Motley Crue photo shoot a few weeks back contacted me to ask me to do an interview and photo shoot for and article that  Blender magazine was putting out about 'the 25 sexiest women you need to know about' It had to do with all the women behind the scenes in the hard rock and pop music world and I was so flattered at the time but now I seem to be doubting myself as usual. I know I worked hard to get where I am but none of that had anything to do with how 'sexy' I am. At least I like to think that it didn't.

"I know, I'm just... nervous," I say once the light turns green and I pull up to the parking lot to find a space.

"Don't be... you got this, you know you do," He says so sweetly to me through the phone as I cut the engine.

"Ok... I love you," I say after a few minutes as I try to calm my nerves down.

"I love you so fuckin' much baby, you are gonna kill it," He says so excitedly again which made me laugh.

"I miss you, so...  so much," I sigh, resting my head on the headrest of the driver's seat.

"Oh fuck baby, you have no fucking idea how much I miss you,"

We've both been working like crazy, me on the road with Velvet Revolver while he has been working in the studio with the boys and getting ready to finally shoot the video for Motley Crue's new single that will be on the anthology album that has yet to be announced. So much buzz has been stirring with rumors of a reunited Crue that it's been hard for them to keep it a secret. The management team has already started setting up press release dates in December with a 25 date tour to start in January with more dates to possibly be announced depending on the reaction from the fans. I know for sure, they are going to add more, there's no way they wouldn't.

Then on top of that, Tommy was offered a book deal, to tell about his life, that would pretty much go into a little more depth than The Dirt. I never read The Dirt but I've heard from so many people how insane of a read it is. It would just be weird to read it since now I'm married to Tommy. So basically in between all of the reunion stuff, and him finishing his book, all the while me working on the road, we haven't seen each other in weeks.

"I think this is the longest we've ever been apart from each other," I chuckle.

"Oh baby you're tellin' me, fuck it's driving me crazy that I haven't see you in like what over a month?" He says.

"More than that, since our anniversary," I say trying not to sound sad but fucking christ I miss him.

"Fuck," He sighs, then after a few moments of silence he asks, "You still flying back out tomorrow?"