Finding Oriana

Chapter 23

CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE

Once we got back home, I called her. I need to sort this shit out. I just hope that I've not fucked up again. As expected, she takes a while to answer, but she did eventually.

"You're mad, aren't you?"
I know she is because she's not speaking. Not until she laughed at me.
"Baby, I'm sorry. Shit. Fuck. Baby, this is terrifying me. I don't want to lose you. You know this."
She goes quiet again, but when she finally speaks I hear the pain in her voice and it kills me to hear it, too.

"Kaiden, y-you know I'm yours. I've fucking told you many times. Fuck sake what do I have to do to prove it? Kaiden you ran from me you didn't even allow me to finish what I needed to say. I mean, I listened to you. I'd sat there, and I listened to what you wanted to do with your life. You've found what you want to do and I was happy for you, but Kaiden, I'm still trying to find what I want to do. I'm only eighteen years old, and I've done fuck all with my life. I've not experienced anything. Not... Not like you have."
What the hell?

"What? Are you shitting me? Ori, you can't seriously compare me to you? Fuck sake! Baby... Wait, are you saying what I think you're saying? Seriously, you want to fuck around? You want to fuck... Oh, fuck no! No fucking way, Ori. I won't let you fucking leave me, just to go and bastarding fuck, around! Fuck around with Pricks, ones that won't love you as I do."

Probably not one of my finer moments but it seems to me, she wants to fuck around. I knew it I knew I'd as soon as she'd mentioned modelling.

"I knew it, I fucking knew it Kaiden. You don't fucking trust me, do you? That's what all this is about, isn't it? You seriously don't trust me to stay faithful to you. You're running off, has nothing to do with my new job! You just, don't trust me to be around other men."
Well, before it was other men, I didn't trust. But now, I'm thinking otherwise.

"Wow! Just, wow! I'm not you Kaiden and you fucking know it! Fuck sake! Wow! Well, fuck you Vincente! Just, fuck you!"

Fuck, fuck! FUCK! What is wrong with me? Why did I do this why didn't I just tell her I love her and I'll support her? And now she's hung up on me I'll probably never see her again. Shit, fuck! I need to see her. I need to sort this shit out once and for all. I ask my Dad, to drop me off in town so I can walk the rest of the way to her house. The only thing is though there was a match earlier on so it'll take a while to get there. Before I do go through, I grab a quick shower first.
About two hours later, I finally make it to her house. Only I'm not the only one who did, too. I always climb in through her window. Well, when I get up there, my world fell into a pit of darkness. My world was in his arms of him, both looking pretty fucking cosy. They're both standing against her bedroom wall and she's in her fucking underwear. So obviously, I've missed a bit of the show of my girlfriend, cheating on me with the same fucker who'd stolen my first girlfriend... along with every one of my cast-offs. I open her window, and they obviously don't hear me because they've not moved. That is until I finally speak.

"Well, isn't this all fucking nice and cosy?"

You know the rest. The rest of her side anyway. Let's just say, I stayed on the drink and drug-induced coma after she left. That's where it all started. Yep, I'd fucked up, good and proper.
After watching my world stand there in her underwear, I stormed out. I headed straight to my buddy's party. Well, I say party it was more just a piss up rather than anything else. Anyway, all I really, remember of that night is getting off my face while I'd sat in the corner of the room. I remember Layla sat with me for half the night. Even though she was with Daniel, she sat with me, trying to cheer me up. She was telling me, I'm better off without her anyway and that I'm too good for her. Then she tried to tell me they'd been at it for weeks behind my back. Ori and Bax were at it for weeks. Well, with me being in my drunken state, believed it, too. I ended up heading for Dan's spare room really, needing some space. Yet, she'd sneaked in after me. I was laid out in bed. I hadn't even stripped my clothes off. Well, the rest was a blur, if I'm completely honest with you, but it wasn't until the next day when I was at school. I eventually turned my phone on and received Ori's text, which fucking killed me.