Finding Oriana

Chapter 8

CHAPTER EIGHT

Baxter went home, which I felt so bad about. Yet before he'd left, I quickly pulled him to one side. I needed to try to at least, clear the air. I didn't want to leave this mess like this. Yes, he'd tried to kiss me but I didn't want Kaiden to hurt him.

"What is it, Oriana?" He asked with an almost bored expression on his face. He's looking away from me and I guess I deserved it. I mean, I chose Kaid.
"I-I just want to apologise. I-I didn't want any of this to happen. I mean, and I guess I need to thank you, too. You know, for not telling my parents."
This is where he turns his head to look at me and I almost want to hug him just with the look of sadness in his eyes.
"You know I should tell them, but I won't. I won't because I want you to see him for yourself. Ori, he will hurt you trust me it will happen. Yeah, I'm pretty gutted you didn't choose me. But maybe one day when you've dumped his arse, you'll see I'm perfect for you. I'd never hurt or disrespect you, not like he will. Fuck. Ori, I just wanted a chance to get to know you but I know he's in your head. I guess I'm not there yet, but one day I hope to be. Take care of yourself, Oriana."
He suddenly goes quiet, but when he spoke again, I'm shocked.
"Fuck. Oriana, can I kiss you? Just this once, I swear I'll leave, and you won't see me again. I mean, if that's what you truly want? But just one please, just to see."

Oh god, this can't be happening right now he seriously didn't just ask me this? We're both standing outside of my Uncle's house waiting for his Dad, to come and pick him up everyone else is inside. Oh, god, Kaiden would have a fit. He'd literally go ape shit on his arse.

"I-I'm sorry, Baxter, I can't do that. I mean, as much as I would have loved to do that I can't. I'm with Kaiden I don't want to start whatever it is we're starting up here I don't want to start it on a lie. I don't want to be the one to break the trust you know?" He sighs and then nods his head while his whole body deflates. I feel terrible about everything but I can't help it, it's just the way it is.

"I've gotta tell you, Ori, that sucks but I understand. Sadly, it just makes me want you more, only because now I know I know you'd be perfect for me. I'll back off though I'll back off until he fucks up then I'm coming for you. I want my chance, Ori because you're too fucking good for him. Probably for me, too."

He paused while staring into my eyes. Blue meets blue. All the while my heart is pounding in my chest worried about what he's going to do. Only it's short, lived when his Dad, pulls up into the driveway. Baxter pulled his eyes away from mine and looks over at his Dad after he'd beeped his horn. When he turns back to look at me he smiles then winces when the action pulls at his split lip, which makes me wince too.

"I'm sorry he did that."
He shook his head telling me he deserved it. It still doesn't stop the guilt though. I mean, I really didn't want it to end like and I certainly didn't want him to get hurt either. I guess I'm going to have to keep an eye on Kaiden because this, "jealousy thing" is pretty intense. I wouldn't want him to get in any kind of trouble. You know, for losing his shit on some poor unsuspecting geezer, that shows any interest me. I wonder if that's why he kick-boxed. He has a bit of road rage in the old trunk or some pent-up issues, maybe? I don't know, but I'm going to have to watch out for this. I only hope he doesn't think I'm never going to talk to the opposite sex though? Because that's just crazy I refuse to allow anyone to tell me who I can and can't talk to. I mean, he should trust me anyway he should know that I'd never do that.

"I'll see you around, beautiful."
He ends that by lifting his hand to my face to caress my cheek with his fingers. Oh, this is confusing me right now. He's so handsome, but I want to be with Kaiden. I guess if he hadn't shown up and it was just Baxter here maybe then I would have liked to see where this would go. Sadly, it didn't happen that way, and again, I'm hoping we can do this.
I hope to God we're both strong enough to do this.