My Glue (A Newt Fanfic)

What Is Wrong With Me? (Newt Point of View)

"You're crazy. You must have a death wish! There is no way I am letting you be a Runner." I yelled at her. Why the bloody hell would she WANT to be a Runner?"Why?!?! Because I'm a girl is that it?" Miranda started yelling. Her voice faltered and her eyes welled up."No. That's not it." I said. I didn't want to tell her that it's because I care for her too much. I might scare her away."You think I can't take care of myself or that I'm not strong enough? Or because us girls belong in the kitchens and you men belong fighting for the girls right? Because if I recall correctly you are a Runner?""No that's none of the reasons." I was so frustrated that she doesn't understand that I care for her so much."Then what?!?!?! Why won't you let me be a Runner? I need to be free, get out of here." She got up and ran to the forest. What the hell was wrong with me? Why did I yell at her? Why didn't I tell her? I didn't see her until at dinner that night. She completely avoided me. I was being crushed inside. I felt as if my heart was ripped out, minced, and put back. I was mush. I kept staring at her but she never looked my way. Then she got up saying bye to everybody except me. I walked outside to see Miranda in the field in a sleeping bag next to Chuck."You sure you wanna sleep out here?" I said."Yeah I'm fine." Miranda said. She had no emotion. It was like I didn't exist."Ok. I guess I'm gonna go. Bye." I walked away my head hanging. What can I do to get her back? What can I do to make her mine again? Then I realized that there was nothing I could do. She hated me and there was nothing I could do.It's been three days. Three days of being broken. Three days with a huge hole through my chest. When I run all I think about is her. I even run into walls thinking about her. There is nothing that will make her like me again. I decide that I can't live in a world where she hated me so why should I keep living?It is right before the doors close. I start to climb the vines to a ledge on the wall. Nobody is looking so I jump. I jump to my freedom, to my escape, to my relief of not having my love. But my foot got stuck in a vine on the way down. I smacked against the wall screaming. My ankle was broken. I couldn't get free so I just screamed. Why won't they let me die? I flail hitting the wall over and over until I pass out.When I wake up Miranda is laying on me in the hospital. I play with her hair. She is so beautiful. Surely I must have died or this is a dream because she would not be this close to me. When she woke up and hugged me I knew it was real. She was warm and smelled like lavender, her favorite scent. She rambled on about apologizing but I didn't hear a word. I could only think about the fact that I had my Miranda back. Minho came in and alerted everyone I was awake with surprisingly no smart ass comment. "Hey Minho, can you get Newt some food. He hasn't eaten in a while so he has to be starving.""No I can get up and get it myself babe." I said. I put in babe because I know it would make her laugh. She helped me up and yelped when I touched her back. So was she the one who saved me? Did she get hurt for saving me? I would not be able to make that up to her.We went to dinner and were greeted by many smiles and greetings of all different kinds. When we were done with breakfast and done listening to Chuck blab on we went to the edge of the forest. We talked for a while. When we ran out of things to talk about I moved my head closer to hers. Then I placed my lips on hers. I kissed her on the lips.