oh. [sashanne]

{five}

So I guess cheerleaders can be gay. But I'm not!

Well, actually, I think I need to admit something to myself. Just myself, and it might not be true, but I think I like Anne. Which would make me gay.

But I don't know if I like Anne. It's just a thought. A weird electric wired thing in my brain, or something. That's what Marcy says thoughts are.

I sit in my room, grinding my teeth. I have so much pent up anger building up inside of me.

I burst out of my room.

"Mom, can you take me to the gym?" I plead, smiling at my mom. Going to the gym always gets rid of the urge to brutally murder someone. I don't know who I want to brutally murder, but it sure would be nice right now.

My mom rolls her eyes at me and sighs. She mumbles out acceptance and grabs her keys.

kween_sasha08: anne

kween_sasha08: can u make me a gym playlist im going to the gym 😍🏋🏼‍♀️

annabanana811: Yeah sure Sash hehe

annabanana811: playlist.idkhowlinkswork

kween_sasha08: thx ⚔️😘💅

I pop my AirPods in and drown out my mom's rambling to me about my dad.

I don't even listen to this stuff, I just kinda like that Anne thought I'd like it. It's still within my taste, so it's not that I'm out of control.

~

I sigh and push the dumbbell off of me as I hear the beginning of a new song start to play. I don't recognize this one.

Been hiding for so long..

These feelings, they're not gone.

I cock my head back in confusion. The beat is nice. These lyrics are sorta relatable. How did Anne know I'd like this?

Can I tell anyone?

The chorus starts, and I look for my phone to text Anne. It's not next to the weights where I put it. My heart plummets.

They're so pretty it hurts

I'm not talking 'bout boys

I'm talking 'bout girls

Oh. That's why Anne chose this song. She thinks I'm gay. She's so stupid, I'm not gay.

Out of the corner of my eye, I notice my mom holding a rose gold iPhone and squinting at it. IT'S MINE. I panic, run, grab my phone from her, and turn the stupid song off.

"What is 'girls'?" She asks, scoffing at me.

The song is called girls?? What is wrong with Anne? Does she want me to be grounded!

"Um.. Anne makes me playlists for the gym and that's one of her favorite songs." I mutter, looking to the side. I mean I'm not lying, she probably loves this song.

"Hmm.. okay, whatever you say.." She sighs and walks out of the gym. I guess that means we're done here.

kween_sasha08: ANNE.

kween_sasha08: WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU.

annabanana811: I'm so sorry

annabanana811: What did I do

kween_sasha08: WHY DID YOU PUT THAT STUPID SONG ON MY PLAYLIST.

annabanana811: ?

kween_sasha08: THE GAY SONG

kween_sasha08: "THERE SO PRETY IT HURTS?!?!?//"

annabanana811: Im sorry Sash ☹️

kween_sasha08: u better be 🤬

I bite my lip and stare out the window, bottling up tears. I feel bad for saying that to Anne. I just can't believe she k̶n̶o̶w̶s̶ thinks I'm gay.