New Beginnings- (Jesse Polock)

18 *warning sexual content*

I woke up the following morning by the sun beaming through the blind. Jesse was asleep face down on the pillow with his arm across my naked waist. The dark bed sheets covered our intertwined legs. I stretched and rubbed my eyes then squinted at my phone, 10:44am, I huffed and carefully lifted up Jesse' arm then slowly climbed out of bed. Jesse looked so cute, he had slightly rolled over as I got out of bed and I could now see his face. I quickly took a picture and uploaded it to Instagram captioning it 'Well last night was messy, but a good one. Some how this one still stays cute... #engagementparty #cute #love #future #braboy'. I then tagged him in the picture. I then decided to go and have a shower so I didn't bother putting any clothes on as I walked into the shower room. I turned on the shower and let it heat up as I went to the toilet.

I climbed into the shower immediately felt more refreshed as the warm water started to trickle down my body. I lathered up some shampoo in my hair then rinsed out, repeating this before I put a conditioning treatment on. I then washed my body and shaving relevant areas before rinsing the conditioner out. I climbed out of the shower wrapping a towel around my body and my hair.

I crept out of the en suite to find Jesse still snoring away so I made my way downstairs after grabbing my phone. I put the kettle on before picking up my cigarettes and going outside. Considering it was winter it was pretty warm today. I plonked down on one of our wooden garden chairs and lit a cigarette. I checked my phone after taking a drag. I hade one new message from Matt Dee
'Hey rubs, hope you and the kid are alive. You were both pretty wasted last night. Speak to you later, M xx'
I laughed at the fact he ended his text with M.
'M, what the fuck is that!! You've never ended a text like that! Fucking nutter. We're fine, well I'm currently having a smoke and Jesse is still asleep but he is breathing. I checked. What are you up to today then M xx'
I hit reply before finishing off my cigarette and returning indoors. By now the kettle had boiled so I made my cup of coffee then sat on the sofa and watched TV.

An hour or so passed and Jesse still hadn't stirred. I went back upstairs to change into some clothes. I picked a pink g-string with a matching bra then put a pair of booty shorts on with one of Jesse's vests and a jumper. I wandered over to Jesse' side of the bed and gave him a kiss on the forehead. He grumbled and rolled over to looked at me groggily opening his eyes.
"Hey there handsome" I said to him smiling.
"Hey" he replied rubbing his eyes, "what time is it?" He asked
"It's lunchtime" I replied, "well midday"
"Shit" he muttered, "I should probably go shower" he slowly sat up on the edge of the bed then stood up and pulled me into a hug before kissing me.
"Go shower" I said before smacking his bum and walking away.
"I'll get you back" he called after me. I just smirked and carried on walking.

When I arrived back downstairs I made Jesse a drink as well as another one. As I was about to sit down the door bell rang. I put the mugs down and went to answer it. I looked through the peep hole to find Matt pulling a silly face.
"Hey M" I said, putting emphasis on the m, as I opened the front door. "What are you doing here?" He chuckled as he walked through the front door.
"Figured I'd come and say hello, is the kid alive yet?" He asked following me towards the kitchen. I put the kettle on again and nodded.
"Yep" I said popping the p, "he's in the shower" I passed Matt's drink to him then made my to the garden with my own coffee. Matt followed me. I took out my cigarettes and Matt did the same as we lot one us together. We both sat down opposite to each other at the table.
"How have you been Rubs?" He asked taking a drag from his cigarette. I sort of shrugged as I took a rag from my own.
"Okay, I think" I replied looking at him, "Jesse has been wonderful as always and the help from you guys is amazing. I'm just scared I'll have another relapse, you know?"
"Yeah, I get it Rubs. The thing is it's always going to be part of you. You just need to learn how to cope with it. Talk to Jesse, me or any of the guys. If you do relapse we'll just start again, we won't hate you for it. We all know how difficult it is. People think that someone with mental health issues are nuts which we all know isn't true. People just need help, which is why you have us. We love you" he said smiling.
"Especially me" Jesse said from behind me making me jump, he almost appeared from nowhere.
"Fuck Jesse, you scared the life out of me" I said to him. Both him and Matt laughed as he made his was over to us with his coffee and joined us at the table.
"We were just discussing the fact Rubs needs to talk to us when she's down." Matt said to Jesse as he took a sip from his drink. Jesse nodded and placed his mug back down on the table.
"It's so hard seeing you when you're down. You're my everything and you need to remember that. You're doing so well though Rubs, I'm so proud, he'll we all are" he said holding my hand.
"I'm scared though" I admitted finishing the last of my cigarette.
"What of?" Jesse asked looking at me.
"I don't want to be sectioned again, and this shot with Stella. What happens if she comes back?"
"Oh fuck her Rubs, you're safe. You're marrying me after all. I have a reputation, which I'm not proud of but they wouldbt dare touch you because of it. Also you won't get sectioned again because you have us. You just need to talk" he said and I nodded, "Now I was thinking we could get those tattoos done today" he added.
"That sound pretty good to me" I replied, "Are you coming to?" I asked Matt. He nodded with his reply.
"If I'm not intrudibg, that is"
"Of course not bra" Jesse replied, "you can hold this ones hand with me" he said laughing.
"Fuck off" I said laughing as I hit his arm playfully. "I might not have balls, I have bigger balls than you think though"
"I know, I know" he said laughing.
"I need to go and get changed" I announced standing up from the table. I gave Jesse a quick kiss and ran upstairs.