Dani's Harem [Reverse Harem]

Trent - Don't get distracted by a pretty smile

There are at least a dozen other tasks I could be doing at this time but leaving doesn't seem to be something I can do right now. I'm trying to tell myself I'm standing here watching them lay down on the bed to make sure they aren't going to whisper to each other and attempt to escape but I know I am just lying to myself. The girl intrigues me and pulls at me in a way I do not understand. I want to dig at it and find out what makes her the way she is.

When any other human would be despairing or hysterical about the situation they are in she took it all well. A little too well and I am left wondering about her and how her mind ticks. Instead of screaming and attacking when she learned the truth she just sat there calmly talking to me and taking care of the soldier. Sure she became a little emotional when talking about the death of her Guardian but other than that she seemed mostly calm and collected. This is very unusual for the majority of humans who learn about the supernatural - normally it's more screaming stabbing and the scent of urine.

When a tear rolls down her cheek I almost take a step toward her. I feeze when she turns into the pillow and really let's go. She tries to be quiet at first but eventually, she's sobbing and gasping and making little wounded noises that send little sharp jabs into my gut. It feels like years I have been glued here watching her fall apart and when the dog jumps onto the bed I startle as if I was in a daze watching her lose her mind. I can now hear her whispering into his fur about wanting to die and not wanting to be alone and the repeating words send bile into my throat. I freeze in space and time listening to those words on repeat. Eventually, she falls asleep and I trace away barely noticing the soldier curled around her from behind.

I land in one of my favorite safe houses in Greece but I can't enjoy any of it as I immediately hurl into the nearby toilet. Her words swirl around my head again and again until they take on familiarity and I hear my own voice whispering the same broken wishes a very long time ago at the start of my imprisonment. On my knees, I brace against the toilet seat and hope nothing else comes up. When I am sure I'm clear I sit back on the floor and shuffle back until my back is against the shower wall. I rest my hands on my knees and watch them shake as I fight other memories bought on by the auditory flashback.

Eventually, I get my breathing back under control, the shaking quits and I gather enough strength to stand and brush my teeth. I avoid looking in the mirror and make my way to the balcony of my apartment. Grabbing a bottle of water on the way, I sit and watch the ocean. Unfortunately as beautiful as the view is I can't pay attention. My mind circles and again I wish my brother were here with me to help me puzzle this all out. I miss him with everything in me. Even after so many years apart it still feels wrong to be alone. I feel incomplete - like I am hollowed out and a chunk inside me is gone. Every single time I wake up and realize he is gone it is like losing him all over again. It has always felt unnatural to us to be apart. We balanced each other and that is gone.

I feel like I am only working at half capacity. If he were here we would already know what was going on with the woman, between us we could do pretty much anything. We were so powerful people who came from all over the world came to seek our favor and all that is gone now. Sometimes thinking is like walking through quicksand. I am not stupid by any stretch of the word but these days it feels like I am missing what is going on around me. More than once I have thought maybe someone was messing with me. Playing with my mind. I might be powerful but I don't have half the protections I used to have to protect my mind because the Demon Lord needed access. However, now that I am actively working against him it is time to shore up my defenses. 

Deciding a witch trip is necessary I make my way inside and grab a fresh shower and clothes. Once I am ready I trace to The Jinx corner and am welcomed immediately by screaming and a body throwing themselves at me. I brace ready for the attack but I am still a little unsteady so both myself and the screaming individual hit the ground. I turn the fall into a roll and am back on my feet as if nothing happened. However, the person who attacked me is laying on the ground gasping whilst throwing me accusing stares.