KISMET

FAREWELL LIST

JENNIE

The moment we arrived, Lisa's mom embraced me so tight. She understood right away when she saw all our bags being carried by the helpers  to their guest room.

We talked a little then I decided to hide. I know Lisa will think that Rosé brought us here. Her father came too and embraced me.  Rosé called him when we're on our way here.

We rushed inside Mom's room. We hid here first because Lisa will surely inspect her and the guest room right away. 

I was right. I could hear Lisa's voice while I am putting my kids to sleep. I am crying. I could hear her cries too. She is begging for help from her parents to convince me not to leave her. I admit, it really pains me inside doing this. But I am so done. All my life spent with her, I always try. But now, I am so tired. 

When Lisa left, Rosé knocked on the door and she helped me transfer my kids in the guest room. Her parents invited me to have a cup of tea to somehow calm me. But I am still shaking and crying while they wait for me to speak.

"Lay your plans, Jen. We will support you. I apologize for all the pain you are enduring because of Lisa." Dad said while rubbing my back. He is so disappointed and sad of what happened to Lisa and I's marriage.

"We are here for you. I am so sorry for what Lisa has done all these years. You all have the right to be in a place where you feel at peace, Jen." Mom added. She is crying too.

"I am planning to be with my parents, Dad. Maybe I'll look for a job when I get there. Mom, can we stay here until my leg is fine? I am sorry. We don't have a place to live in at the moment." I said.

"If that's what you want, we will support you. You and the kids are welcome here anytime, Jennie. I can help you find a job through my connections. Sorry if Lisa did not allow you to work and grow out there." Mom is still crying.

"Is there really no chance anymore for you to forgive her?" Dad tried.

"I am not mad at Lisa. I forgive her. But I can't just be with her anymore even how much I love her still. I love her so much. I am sorry, dad. But I don't want to reach the point that I can't function anymore as a mother to my kids. They need me." And I sobbed.

"We understand. Jennie, I have a proposal. We also don't want our grandchildren to be away from us. And this is also to check the three of you from time to time. I hope you will accept my offer." What will dad propose? I hope it's not too much.

"I am buying a house for you, my grandchildren and your family. Let's hire a nanny for Marcus and Kylie. Go back to school if you want to. I'll financially support everything you need. Just please stay here near us. We want to be there for our grandchildren too and you. I am sorry if this the only way we can fill Lisa's shortcomings." He is trying to hold his tears not to fall.

"Dad, that's too much. I can't accept it." I replied shyly.

"It's not. You are like my child already. And you are the mother of my grandchildren, Jennie. Here in the urban turf, they can have good education. We will also grab the chance of having an eye surgery for Marcus once there will be an available pair for him. If you plan to work or study, do it your way. We are just here to support you. Please do not hesitate to call us when you need something or you need us. Ok?" Lisa's father is really trying his best to pacify me. But for sure, I know that he is concerned about me and my children.

Even if I won't accept his offer, I know that they will still insist.

While I'm lying on bed, I looked at my kids sleeping soundly. I cried more. I am sorry for not giving you a complete family, Marcus and Kylie. Mama wants us to be complete, but I want to be a better mother for the two of you. Someday, I will let you understand why this all happened. 

It's been a week that we are hiding from Lisa. Their guard here is so cooperative with us. Whenever Lisa's car arrives at the gate, he would call us inside so we can hide instantly. I want you to be with your kids, Lisa. But I still need to help myself.

Lisa has been calling and sending me messages but I just ignore her. I know she's just going to insist for us to be back together. I just can't. 

Her pilot friends would also text me, letting me know that Lisa is so drunk again whenever they go out. 

I swear, I really want to hug her right now. But I have to save myself. You hurt me so much, Lis. I love you but this is all I got. I have to help myself move on from this— from you. If time comes I am healed, I'll talk to you about our children and let's arrange when you can spend time with them.

After a week, Lisa's father found a home for us. It's big and comfortable. At first I refused for this is too expensive. But he is insisting. He even made sure that all furnitures and our need are complete inside the house. Thank god he agreed with me not to get us a house inside a village. I asked if we can have one along the road so my mother can still sell to continue her small business. I'm thankful that he granted it thoughtfully. The house has an existing vacant store beside the garage that faces the main road. He wired me money for our budget for the year. He said he will keep checking on us and provide more. He told me not to be shy to him like before especially if I need something for my children. He also let someone get my parents from the province with their things. He gave us one of his car so the kids and my dad won't have a hard time traveling for their check up.

When my parents arrived, I apologized to my mother.

"I am so sorry, mom. I was not the best wife for Lisa." I cried.

She embraced me and cried too. She told me that I did my part. 

My father is crying while he's on the wheelchair. I hugged him.

"It's never your fault. I am sorry if me and your mother were not there at your side when you needed us the most." Melts my heart listening to my dad.

"I will protect you from now on. I am sorry. I didn't know." My brother Mikhail is maintaining his strong and brave face. I never told him about what's happening to me. I don't want to provoke a commotion between him and Lisa.

After a week, I got Nancy's number from Rosé. She helped me get it through their airline where Nancy works. 

I messaged her.

J: This is Jennie. Meet me at St. Vaughn Café on Saturday. Do not let Lisa know. This is important.

She called me right away. She apologized for everything and promised to meet me.

The day came and we met.

She is crying in front of me. Swearing to god that she will not go after Lisa anymore and that she's willing to break up with her. 

I just smirked in front of this lady.

"I am not here to ask you that. In fact, I invited you to give you a list of Lisa's medicines and what time you are going to let her take those and all intervals. And lastly, please do take care of her, Nancy. Please be there for here even if she doesn't need you." I said and walked out after showing up like a brave woman.

But I sobbed the moment I entered the car. My brother did not start driving yet and he just comforted me and let me cry.