The Demon Lord's Inner Battle

Chapter 12

The way to the goddess statue feels like an eternity. I can't forget Ghirahim's face... what did I do... I'm horrible...

"Master. I suggest you call your Loftwing."

Fi speaks with me through my sword and only now I notice I am back in the sky.

"Oh crap. Thanks, Fi."

I call for Crimson and hear his scream for me and catches me within seconds.. He must have sensed me and came for me but was confused since I didn't call him yet and draw circles around me.

"Hey, Crimson. You doing okay?"

I smile at him and pet his back lovingly. I should try to get some distraction...

"Hey, how about we get soup and take some for Sapphire?"

Crimson eyes me from the side, checking if I'm trustworthy with my condition.

"Haha... I'm okay. Really, buddy. Let's go. I'm just thinking about a lot of stuff right now..."

He seems to accept my answer since he snuggles into my hand and heads for the Lumpy Pumkin.

Once there I order like always and we decide to take the soup back to Skyloft to eat with Sapphire.

"Hello, Instructor Horwell. I brought soup for Sapphire."

I greet my instructor and he nods as Sapphire approaches me and I pet his beak.

"Hello, Link. Thank you. We're done for today with the training so he can eat right away. He's doing good progress."

He smiles at me and I nod. I'm really happy he's recovering so fast. The way he got hit by that storm looked really bad...

The instructor puts his hand on my shoulder while passing by and leans into my ear.

"Link. If there is anything on your mind, talk about it with someone. It's bad to just carry it alone."

My eyes meet his sincere worried ones and I nod with a conflicted smile. He nods back and leaves me with the loftwings to eat.

When we're done it's already late and the sun is slowly setting. I'm tired from the trip to the surface and head to my room but I can't rest... My mind is circling around Ghirahim...

Maybe the instructor is right... maybe I should talk to someone about it... but what am I supposed to say? I fell for my enemy? I don't want to fight him even if that would mean putting Zelda and the entire world in danger?

My head is spinning and I feel like I'm running in circles and can't get forward...

"Master, if I may."

I lift my burried head out of my hands and look at Fi, who appeared before me.

"Y...yes, Fi?"

She flies closer to me and I think I can see slight worry in her empty eyes. Although probably just imagination. Does she even have feelings? Would be nice to have none...

"Master. I don't want to intrude into your personal life but I suggest you really do talk with someone. I am connected with you and I can sense you are uncertain and that could put everyone in danger. I'm afraid I don't understand human feelings but I am to 70% sure that it would help."

I listen to her and think for a bit. Yeah... she's right... they're all right... I have to talk to someone...

I nod my head and leave my room, leaving her behind. I feel like I couldn't say what's on my mind with her around. I know she knows in her own way anyway but I think I just need some moment to not have someone read my mind so I am forced to express myself...

"Thanks, Fi. I'm gonna be back."

Fi watched as I turn around at the door and nods. I close it and head for Pipit's room. I think his patrol shift didn't start yet so I knock on his door and his voice calls out to me.

"Oh, Link. C'mon in."

Pipit smiles at me and gestures towards his bed for me to sit down. I step inside and close the door.

"Hey, Pipit. I hope I'm not interupting you with something?"

I scratch my head, looking away as he pulls me towards the bed and forces me to sit down.

"Of course not. I told you, I always have time to help. So, what's up my friend?"

He sits down next to me, giving me his full attention.

"I... I don't know how to start... it's pretty hard for me..."

I look to the ground and he puts his hand on my shoulder.

"It's about that topic from before, right? You can tell me everything. Nobody else will hear it. It's gonna be safe with me, I promise."

I smile at him and take a deep breath before I tell him about everything that happend when I was around Ghirahim and my feelings. The entire time he looks at me and listens silently.

"I see... so that's what was making you suffer, huh? Man, that's tough. And now you're afraid you hurt him last time?"

I nod, buring my head.

"I... I know it sounds ridicoulus and selfish but... I really don't want to fight him... I can't... I don't want to hurt him..."

Pipit nods, rubbing my shoulder.

"Did you tell him that ever? It may seem selfish to you but maybe he thinks the same and you both just don't say it, you know?"

I feel tears forming in my eyes. Damn how pathetic am I...

"We're... destined enemies... I musn't have feelings for him... we're supposed to fight each other to the death..."

Pipit shakes his head.

"Link. I know it's hard but feelings don't work rational and logical. Fact is, you do have feelings for him and it looks like he has some for you as well. Otherwise he would have actually fight you and hurt you when he got the chance. He didn't had to let the wound he gave you heal so quickly also."

I look up to him, meeting his eyes.

"Look, what I want to say is, go talk to him. Tell him what you told me. How you feel. That you don't want to be enemies. I know myself, doing so is really hard and you're afraid of the other's reaction but like this you will never know and will just keep hurting yourself."

I nod at him.

"You're right... I'm just so scared..."

He gets up and gives me his hand.

"I know. But I know you can do it. C'mon. Go to him. I think you're ready to face your feelings and him."

I nod again and take his hand. He pulls me up.

"My shift is starting soon. C'mon. Let's get your sword and I'm gonna see you off, alright?"

We head to my room and I grab my sword and shield and we go outside. Sun already set and I call Crimson who seems to enjoy permission of night flight.

He lands infront of us and I turn to Pipit before I get on him.

"Thanks for listening, Pipit."

He smiles at me.

"No problem. Now go. Tell him how you feel. I know you can do it. And if you need someone to talk to whenever, I will always make time."

I nod and smile at him and pet Crimson before I climb on him and we fly towards the light beam of Faron Woods. Pipit waves us and then starts his patrol on Skyloft.