I'm scared. I'm not lying when I say that I'm scared. I'm scared I might do the same mistakes, I'm scared that my existence make people around me feel uncomfortable.
I tend to get this feeling when I'm alone in a crowded place. I think people judge me, I think they stare at me while actually they're not.
Four words, one feeling could destroy my life. I had lost myself once because of this feeling. I was stupid by letting this feeling takes over my life and it "ate" me slowly.
Fear,
What's worse than this?
I've let it slide, I've let it control me, and I suffered, alone.
It is my fault. I should've control it, I should've not listened to the "voices" but I did.
Unfortunately, I did. I listened to the "voices" instead.
Fear,
Sometimes the bad things I fear the most had happened to me.
It is not a good thing to brag, but it always happened to me.
No matter how hard I try to deny it, it always happens.
I can't run,
I can't hide,
I can't ignore it.
But I must face it,
Accept it and cry.
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Dark Voices
RandomSometimes, thoughts could kill and the only way to express it by writing it down. Write and eventually everyone will understand you. This is my story, I share my pains with you and it is an open letter, for my circle.
