❀Don't Cry, Daddy❀

30. Mama Drama.

Jon's POV:

Lana currently had Mags in her lap as all three of us were sitting in the main seating area of the tour bus. We were almost in Starkville, Mississippi! It just turned 11 o'clock in the evening, aka it's 12 o'clock in the eastern time zone, meaning my newest song, 'When You're Lonely' is out now!

This was a song me and my producer wrote after the stuff happened between me and my ex. To think that I don't relate to it personally anymore makes me beyond proud of myself! No toxic relationships for me anymore, especially considering Lana is the farthest thing from being toxic toward me.

This relationship between me and Lana is peace, bliss, and most of all, perfect. My life, I can fortunately say, is finally at a place where all is right in the world for the first time since that horrific time back in November of last year. Here's to hoping this happiness lasts for a very long time.

My tour manager, JD was doing his turn of driving the bus and we were all jamming out to the new song. It was a hit with all of my band! Lana and Mags seemed to be getting into it as well- especially Magnolia! She was babbling along to it and dancing to the song.

Speaking of Mags though, I sure hope I make that kiddo endlessly proud of me. She's my biggest inspiration and why I do what I do every single day and night! Having a baby is incredible, but having a daughter is what does me in... Being a girl dad is super cool in so many different ways.

All in all, there's nothing in this world that I wouldn't do for that baby! She is all of me and no one can change that- I won't let anyone try to change that.. Thankfully, Lana hasn't tried to get in the way of me and Mags- just because Lana is in our lives and everything doesn't mean that I'm going to stop being close with my daughter.

It's too soon to be thinking about this kind of stuff, yes, but if Lana were to become the step-mom of Magnolia, there would be a few boundaries. The main thing would be letting me know if she's actually caring for Mags rather than my ex.. Here's the thing; she never once answered any kind of questions regarding our daughter when I'd get home from the studio or a show.

However, Lana wouldn't be deemed a step-mom because in my eyes, she treats Magnolia as that's her full blooded daughter. Those two are so wonderful and I don't know where in the world I did good to be blessed with these two, but I'm so damn proud of myself for going through all the pain and suffering that happened to me almost a year ago...

Oh! We've finally got a date, theme, and time picked out for Magnolia's birthday! Since her actual birthday falls on a weekday where everyone would more than likely be busy, we decided to host it on Sunday, which is Halloween, which is fitting considering the theme we planned out for this! She is going to hopefully love it! Considering she is eleven months old, she probably won't t-totally understand everything, but when she gets older, maybe she'll understand it better.

Not many people are going to be invited out only because it's just a baby's birthday party, so the people I'm really thinking is going to come is Travis, Madison, my parents, and maybe my two brothers, however I'm not entirely sure about my brothers! If those two and their clan don't come, then it'll just be my parents, Trav, and Mads, which isn't so bad, honestly. It won't be crowded in that way!

Soon, my song had ended and everyone in the bus cheered, clapped, and roared with happiness and all kinds of praises. Knowing that these guys are so proud of me could make me start crying tears of damn joy! Working my ass day and night making these songs perfect and having an incredible team and fan-base to be at my side through it all beats every other feeling in the world. This feeling, truly, is one of the best feelings a person can endure in their lifetime, even more so if they're a musician!