A Daughter He didn't know He had *The Sequel* (Sonny Carisi Fanfiction)

Reflecting on the past

****Sonny's POV****

6 days later
It's Sunday
A week from today is the father daughter dance
A week from tomorrow is Nina's very scary surgery

The memories of the last 3 years played through my mind like a film and I am just mind-blown at how much has changed, happened, what we have been through, and how things will never be the same no Matter how things go

I closed my eyes and was brought back to a memory

It was Nina's first birthday with me her 13th birthday, she hadn't had a birthday party since before she went into foster care and I wanted it to be her best one yet. I threw her a surprise party at our house and Had Amanda take her out for the day so we could prepare and when they came home she was surprised.
We had a lot of laughs, smiles, memories, and I'll never forget when she said

"Dad this is the best party I've ever had. Thank you for thinking of me to do this."
Nina hugged me tight

"Of course you're my daughter Nina, you Deserve it, I'm not going anywhere. I love you."
I said

"I love you too dad."
Nina squeezed me tight

I was brought back to reality watching Nina sleep on in her hospital bed. I'm emotional and I've been trying to prepare, we just maybe at the end. I want to make all the memories we can the next week and especially at our dance.

"Sonny."
Amanda said silently

Amanda brought me a cup of coffee 

"Thanks."
I said

Amanda sat next to me on the couch

"Whatcha thinking about?"
She asked

"Nina's first birthday with me. Her 13th and you know just reflecting on everything. I'm preparing, Nina has said she knows she's probably going to die. (A few tears fell down my face) but you would never know it, she pushes as much as she can."
I said

"I just wish things was different."
I added

"I know, me too."
Amanda said

"I wish things wasn't as wild as they had been since I got Nina..."
I said

"You know Sonny we may not ever have all the answers as to why things happened like they did and I know you and her have a story like no other. You are a great dad and great person. I'll say it forever you being a dad made you a better person. Don't live with any regrets you did above and beyond in what you could do and I know Nina thinks above and beyond about you."
Amanda said

I looked at Nina who was still sleeping

"I can't believe I had a daughter I didn't even know I had for 12 years, I wish we had longer time."
I said

"I love what you said, no regrets. (I took a deep breath and let it out) she changed my life."
I added

"She's changed all of our lives."
Amanda said

"Dad."
Nina said weakly

"Yeah Hunny?"
I got up and went to her bed

"Can you lay here with me, I'm in a lot of pain."
She pushed out weakly

"What hurts?"
I asked

"My chest."
She whispered out

I looked at Amanda and motioned to her to go get the doctor

"Yeah of course."
I said

I got on the bed with her and she leaned into my chest and I held her fragile body against me

Dr manning came back in with Amanda

Nina had drifted off back to sleep

"Amanda said Nina's chest is hurting?"
Dr Manning said

"Yeah, she said she was in alot of pain."
I frowned

Dr manning took a deep breath

"I can give her some pain medicine if you are ok with it, it's morphine so she maybe more out of it, we will monitor it closely. It could be the tumor we can't go after until we do the brain surgery."
Dr manning said

"That's fine."
I said looking down at Nina

"I just want her to be as comfortable as possible."
I said looking at Dr Manning

"Of course."
Dr manning smiled

I watched Nina sleep peacefully and just cried silently.

"How is she?"
Nick walked in the room

"Doctor had to give her some morphine for pain, she's been pretty out of it."
I said

"I miss playing basketball with her and Fin."
Nick said

"Me too, well I miss watching."
I laughed

Nick laughed too

"I thought it was funny when the many times  Nina got ahold of your phone and went around the precinct taking pictures of everyone and everything."
Nick smiled

"Yeah, and then left me with 50 selfies at least."
I smiled

I sorta teared up

"That picture Fin took of us that one day when she climbed on my lap, that's one of my favorites."
I said

"Me too.."
Nick teared up

"I can't imagine life without Nina Carisi."
I said

"Me either".
Nick said