A Daughter He didn't know He had *The Sequel* (Sonny Carisi Fanfiction)

Starting treatment

****Sonny's POV****

"I'm very sorry it's cancer."
Meredith saying repeatedly went through my  head

I was in the hallway crying with Amanda

"I know, I know."
Amanda held me in her arms

"I'm scared what Meredith is going to say when she comes back, I don't know what to do or even think."
I said

"We'll get through this."
Amanda said

"Mr. Carisi."
I heard a woman say

It was Meredith

"Are you ready to discuss everything?"
Meredith said

"Yes, ready as I'll ever be."
I said

****Nina's POV****

"So you're in stage 3 ovarian cancer, and it's unfortunately with how far is progressed and that you're pregnant it comes with a lot of risks."
Meredith said

"I didn't have any symptoms other than feeling tired, thinking it was just pregnancy, could I have missed something?"
I asked

"You know we may have not even known it was there pregnant or not, had you not had a ultrasound. It usually starts pretty silent and then normally once it's progressed more it's too late, and the options become slim to none."
Meredith said

"So doc what do we do moving forward?"
Sonny asked

Noah squeezed my hand

Meredith took a deep breath

"Ideally we would like Nina to go full term in any pregnancy that's what you want, or at least to 35 weeks, emergency situation we hope for 30 weeks. We are at week 20 now. The cancer has grown quickly. If you wasn't pregnant we would remove the mass and then do full hysterectomy, then see how it was worst case scenario we would do some chemo and you could go into remission but unfortunately those are not our circumstances. Doing chemo is better in the 2nd and 3rd trimester, but with your body Nina and the baby with your history. It's high risk. We would probably more than likely keep you in the hospital more often than not."
Meredith said

"What are my chances of survival?"
I just blurted out

"You're young, healthy otherwise, and a lot of support. I think you have a good chance. Chemo comes with a lot of side effects-nausea vomiting, and it can affect people differently."
Meredith said

"I'm going to loose my hair won't I?"
I asked

Meredith shook her head yes

"I'm so sorry."
Meredith said

"Can we talk this over?"
I asked

"Of course, I'll be back this afternoon and we can discuss everything. we can start treatment as early as tomorrow if that's what you choose."
Meredith said

Meredith walked out of the room and I began to cry.
Noah climbed on the bed and held me in his arms and he cried with me

"We're going to fight this."
Noah said

Sonny came over to my bed with Amanda

"Nina we have a lot to talk about."
Sonny said wiping his eyes

"Dad I'm scared."
I said crying again

Sonny came over to the other side of my bed and sat and he pulled me into his chest and held me while he cried.

We pulled away from one another

I looked at Noah, Sonny, and Amanda

I took a deep breath

"I will fight as long as I can and my body will take it as long as it doesn't hurt or harm the baby."
I said

"Nina you're going to win this, you are a fighter, you are my daughter."
Sonny said choking on tears

"Nina we are all behind you."
Amanda said

Noah squeezed my hand

"I'm all in with you through it all. Nina Carisi I love you."
Noah said

"I love you too."
I said

"Do you think we could have some Chinese before I start chemo and some pancakes?"
I asked

Sonny chuckled

"Of course."
He smiled

I was scared, we was all scared, but I'm going at this full force.

****Sonny's POV****

A week later the following Wednesday

I think this is at the top of one of the hardest things I've had to go through in my life.
Nina started chemo last Thursday and so far she's doing ok, Meredith kept her in the hospital and we are still here.

She was puking in the trash can while she was undergoing the chemo, most of her hair had fallen out at this point. Amanda got her some
Nice headbands and hats to wear to help her feel better, I was holding the trash can while
She puked. Right now I'm on leave of absence again and Amanda is going to continue to work so I can be with Nina.

"Dad I don't know If I can keep doing chemo."
Nina said wiping her mouth

"I'm sorry Hunny."
I didn't know what else to really say honestly

Nina leaned into my chest and I held her
This is hard and it's harder on her than anyone of us.

"Hey sweet girl, you're done with chemo for today. We'll do some scans tomorrow and see how things are going and we'll see if we can maybe discharge you to home temporarily."
Meredith said coming in

"Ok."
Nina whispered out And closed her eyes

Meredith looked at Nina concerned

"Nina said she don't know if she can keep doing chemo."
I said sad

"It's hard, it really is. But if the tumor is shrinking, that's positive. We'll do some tests tomorrow, double check baby and maybe we can get her out of here for a week before we see what's next steps."
Meredith said

"Doc, how do I take care of her while she's out?"
I asked

"Spend all the time you can, love and support. Don't have anyone around or home or near her that's sick or been sick. We want to keep her as healthy as possible. Beach therapy wouldn't be bad for her."
Meredith smiled

I looked down at Nina who just rested on my chest I was scared, I know she was scared. But I didn't want her to know how afraid I was.