Claiming The Charmer

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Pakiramdam ko mababaliw ako sa mga tanong na iniwan ni Maggie saakin. Hanggang ngayon ay dilat na sikat pa rin ang mga mata.

Naiinis na napasabunot sa buhok tumayo ako at nag desisyon na mag timpla ng kape. Matagal ko na ring Hindi na bubuksan ang tindahan.

"Hi Pepe." My cat just tolled her eyes at me. This spoiled brat cat! Pobre na nga kami sobrang spoiled pa!. Kun sabagay Binibilhan ba naman ni Aling ng cat food pag trip lang. Rich cat era iyan?.

"Pepery! Buti ka pa chill chill ka lang." Sabi ko tinatapik ang katawan niya habang humihigop sa timpladong kape.

"How bout naman ang amo mong sobrang malas?. Sayo lang ata ako sinwerte pero San Hindi mo maisip na minalas ka sakin ha? Gagawin talaga niyang siopao!." Irit ko. Joke lang iyon. Aba kahit ganito ang alagang Pusa ay minsan ay naiinis talaga siya lalo na pag month na niya. Literal na kailangan isarado ang buong kwarto pag nag iinit ang Pusa.

Lagot na pag nasagasaan ito! Ayoko mag karoon ng apo ng wala sa oras!.

Hi Maggie sana masarap ang tulog mo dahil ako Hindi! Tangina talaga ng babaitang iyon!. Naka nguso ako habang naka titig sa sobrang dilim na kalangitan.

Tangina? Ano ba talaga trip ng Philip na iyon?.

Oo nga't kung may gusto pala siyang pakasalang babae bakit Hindi na lang siya diba?. I know his parents mauunawain ang mga iyon!.

Santina was right about the story she told. I have a sibling who is suffering from heart disease. She is one of the angels now. The operation was successful but I think it was already her time to go to heaven. At least I saw her smiling and assuring me shell be in a great place I hope so.

Kung naagapan ba ang operasyon niya at Hindi nahiyang humingi ng tulong Kay Mrs. Gutierrez, mabubuhay kaya siya?. Biting my lips as I felt my heart clenching. Its like the scene happened earlier parang sobrang bago palang.

Mawalan na ng ng kapatid mawalan pa ng jowa at the same time. At least isang iyakan na lang diba?.

Kaso sobrang disappointed lang. Kung kailan kailangan ko kasi si Philip saka naman Hindi nag paramdam. And I was too broken.

Tita gave me money the same time Philip saw it. The same day I planned on breaking up with him. Guess it was a bad timing?.

I fucking regret it. Now, he thought I used him for money. How funny.

Why did I even agreed marrying him? Because? My feelings never changed. I still love him, I still crave for him. I guess that's the reason why I wanted to get married to him Even the thought he doesn't love me the same way he did 11 years ago.

Everything change including him. He'd change a lot. That I can't even guess now who is he.

He'd change to a different person. He was not the Philip I met 11 years ago.

Every person really did change huh?.

Did I change also? I doubt it, He said I was stuck in somewhere so probably I didn't change at all.

How the fuck my mind cycling how I got stuck here. How I am the who's lost my way, while everyone keep moving.

Is that how I saw my self? Is that how low I am?.

I feel like I'm a loser, because I'm the only one standing here while everyone having their right way.

Here I am lost.

I never really planned to break up with him our relationship is not as other relationship think so. There is always a flaws. We were only there when we needed the most, We were there to support each other. I gave everything I did to support him in business. I comforted him when he did not passed the exam.

Yet the time when I needed him. When I needed strength, I needed a shoulder to cry on He was not there. He did not show up. He didn't even think to text what is his thoughts.

Then when he came back home he is accusing me that I am just using him for money, that his mother don't like him that's why his mother giving money exchange to break up with him.

No, He is so wrong with that. I never used him for money. I love him with all my heart but I think I love at the wrong time?.

I love him a lot that I lost my self. I can't stand up anymore without his help.

I was too devastated to think I should just killed myself. Because what am I doing here? To walk like a ghost, a lifeless.

If it weren't for Maggie, Santina, and Diego. Siguro 11 death day ko na.

Chuckling as I am now drinking Red Horse. Ito palang kaya ng budget ko, Wala akong pambili ng Tequilla at kung ano pang mamahaling mga brand.

I didn't realize I drank lot of it. Sana may natira pa sa paninda ko bukas. How lucky I am to have a small Sari - Sari store.

Clouded with a lot of thoughts while drinking is a vibe, didn't realize I fell asleep at the table feeling pepe fur.

Sun hitting my face as I stretched my whole body feeling the soft compress of my bed. Waking up rubbing my one eye while stretching my arms.

Sobrang sakit ng katawan ko ano ba ang ginawa ko kagabi?. Brushing my teeth as I saw my reflection.
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My eyes widened when a memory from earlier flashed through my mind. Did I drowned myself with alcohol? Holy Molly!.

Going out the bathroom dumbfounded thinking what the fuck is happening? Why am sleeping on my bed, I mean yes its my bed.

Did  I sleep walking? That's so creepy

Getting out without even checking if I look so right.  I smelled something on my kitchen, now who the heck is that person cooking.

All I can see is a naked back with a apron tying on his back while those muscle keep flexing everytime he move.

Am I dead? Slapping my self I 'aww' and realize it was real. The Angel glory man looked at me and my mouth parted in shock as I recognize the face who Is standing half naked wearing only apron on top while his muscle is freaking flexing infront of me

How the hell those muscle tryin flirting with me????

And

What the hell Mc Philip doing here in my small apartment that almost look too small for us when I'm with him.

Him inside my apartment?