Claiming The Charmer

14

"What happened?." He asked following me whenever I go inside my apartment room.

"Get out."

"Nanaiah."

"Shut up." I said giving him death glare. I picked my towel and proceed going inside the bathroom. I sighed when he stills follow me, giving him my annoyed look.

"What? Hanggang dito ba naman susunod ka pa? O sige po Sir, sabay na tayong maligo." He was supposed to feel embarrassed because I delivered the words for sarcasm but what the fuck Is he entering inside my small bath room and removing his clothes. He really make my words to serious.

Nasiraan ba siya ng utak?.

"Gago? Ginagawa mo dito?." Tanong ko sa natatarantang Boses, Anong trip niya?

"I'm taking bath with you. We do this a lot of time when we are still together right?." He asked. My eyes widened. Why do he need to bring it back?!

"Shut up and get out! We are over 11 years ago, Okay??!." I said feeling frustrated. I am only wearing a under wears covering a white towel for fuck sake!!. And here his abs - Abstract in Mathematics I mean.

"I am not over you yet."

I angrily looked at him and pushed him outside. Closing and Locking the door to loud I sighed hen I didn't feel his presence.

"Go home!." I shouted.

Bakit siya nag papa kita na parang walang nangyari. Na parang wala siyang ginawa a weeks ago. Na dahil sa kaniya inatak ako ng asthma ko?.

Kasalanan niya

And now his presence is here inside my small apartment. I don't even know if he got home or he stayed here. He should go home, wala siyang mapapala saakin.

We were over 11 years ago. If I know the company Interviewed me is his,  I should've attend it. Edi sana Hindi mag cocross ang landas namin. Wala akong mga katunungan sa utak ko.

Kung sana Hindi ako sumigaw at nag sasabi ng Masasama sa kumpanya edi sana hindi niya napansin in presence ko.

Sobrang huli na, Nandito na ako eh. Huli na kasi bumalik, bumalik nanaman siya.

Is he taking his revenge? What a lame plot.

I almost died because of him if not Santina didnt called Maggie, Why is he showing his self here right now like nothing happened, like he didnt leave me almost breathless?.

sighing as I brush my teeth. The towel wrapping on my hair as I soap my face. Checking my self once on a mirror. I combed my hair, combing it with my fingers. I opened the door only Philip greeted me comfortably seat at my one small sofa that it looks double small when he is siting.

"What are you still doing here?" Rolling my eyes at him I pointed the door. Signing him to get out my apartment.

"Sorry na." he said. My face flushed, I am sure as hell my face looks like a tomato and a bomb ready to boomed.

what the fuck is he saying, what?

"Get out na." Now using my calm voice as i gestured the door to him. He stand up making me raise my head to him. He is too tall. Mas matangkad pa kay Jari-o. Now, Why am i comparing their heights? It was too obvious that Philip is taller than that kaldag boy, my fault.

"I am sorry. I know what I did is in-human---" I cutted him not letting him explain. Why would he?.

"I didnt tell you to explain. I DID tell you to LEAVE right now, can you do it?" He sighed and lowered his head.

"Okay, I am sorry. I am now cancelling the wedding for your own good. I am sorry for bringing you here. I guess, I was too eaten by anger, that I coudn't hold my anger in me." he sighed.

"I realize my attitude to you is too childish." he chuckled. "Really? Making you pay for what you've done a years ago. I should be moving on right? I keep on blaming you to what happened in my life but I am the reason. I guess my love was not really enough thattime. I am sorry." He pursed his lips, eyes in pain.

"You've move on. I should too. You understimate my love to you, Nanaiah. I will give you every single money I have in every card I had, just to get you back but guess I'll let myself think this is our closure."

i keep my mouth shut. I can't even utter a word. I can't even let my self open my mouth and say what I am feeling. I lost my voice, I can't even find it.

"I am sorry for making you feel unworthy, you are worth yourself. You should always keep that in your mind. My sorry isn't enough, I know but let me do something to pay you. I'll let you work as administrative assistant, you can start working anytime you want."

he leave. Not letting me even say a word to him. That he is wrong about I moved on, I still did'nt. I guess I would never be?.

I still love him.

No one will move on. I will never let him. Not anymore that he let me walk or enter again in his life. Not this time, Not never.

If he just let this love passed, I am not going to let that happen.

No words can even explain how much I love him. 

For the past 11 years,  He thinks that I finally move on?. I act that I did move on but I am still not. Deep inside I am still stuck here.

Just like my journey. They called so LOVE stuck me inside his heart caging me not letting me go.

It was the reason why I keep on surrendering because all I am feeling is I am inside the cage. I can freely do everything I want but I cannot get out of it.

In order to be out there someone- Someone has the hearts to save me - Not my Friends, Not my family who abandoned me, Not a stranger.

But.

Philip, He will be the one to save me from drowning. He will be the one to lend me stairs. Wala akong magagawa eh, Sa kaniya ako nakasalalay. Sa kaniya ako nasanay.

He was there when I feel so stuck and feeling my self drowning and losing my breathe. He was there everytime. I should understand him.

Why he didn't bother to asked me about my where about when my sister died, We were both to young that time and I should understand him. It was his final exam.

He passed. I did not.

He is Happy. I am broken.

He is successful. I was stuck.

Those words will keep lurking forever inside my mind.