|Doom's Gibel|

Chapter Twenty Two

[A new change?]

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“You have been staring at me for the past 30 min, love. What is it you want to say?”

I quickly tear my gaze away from him, embarrassed of getting caught red handed.

“No, I wasn’t”

He chuckles.

I did make the decision of following Jin’s advice, but now what?
What am I supposed to do?

Given the fact that I had been avoiding him for the past few days and now suddenly talking too much would seem odd and out of the blue.
Plus, that morning I had made my choices clear of having to do nothing associated with him which included these emotions that I feel towards him.

Now the very same person taking a 360 degree turn in her decision just a few days later, would probably make me a hypocrite?

Would he think I am taking him for granted? That I cannot stick to my words and take decisions clearly?

Hold up
Am I feeling insecure?

“Is everything alright?”, he gently touches my shoulder

This small contact was enough to send electricity throughout my body.

I simply nod my head, unable to form words

What am I thinking this hard about?

I should- no have to tell about how I plan to takes think further
How I want to continue loving him despite all odds.

He gets up from his seat to a grab one of the books from the floating shelf, “I think it’s quite late, you should probably-“

“I changed my mind”, I cut him off

“What?”, he turns around.

“I know it’s dicey of me, but I take my words back. I don’t want to force myself into believing that you mean nothing to me and that I feel towards you is simply mere infatuation.
That will a delusion. It’s me dodging the problem, ignoring its existence.
Running away won’t make it go away and I don’t know whether I’ll ever be ready to face it. All I know for now is that I don’t want to regret wasting the amount of time I have....we have.
I want to create memories...happy ones together with you.
I want us to live normally. Have breakfast together, you dropping me for my work, us walking on our way back home, laughing at what may appear silly in others eyes. I want you, Jungkook”

I take a deep breath.

Phew
That was one hell of a paragraph to be spoken a loud

His eyes pop out wide, “I don’t- I don’t understand-“

“I have chosen to love you with all that’s in me. That’s what I mean in short”, I smile

It felt good to hear them out loud now.

He slowly keeps his book on the table and begins walking.

He strides towards me until there is no gap left between us and without any hesitation he locks his lips with mine.

His hand encircled around my waist, bringing me closer to him.

Instinctively my hands reach for his neck and slowly towards his hair; playing with it.

As our lips moved in a rhythmic beat against each other
It felt beyond good to be kissing him.....to be kissed by him

“Do not go back on your words,love. You choose me- Deity of doom.
You must know it’s not easy to get rid of doom”, he smiles

it's been a long time since my update.
A lot has happened and I often doubted myself
I thought of deleting this story since I'm pretty sure my writing is going down the drain.
But I got some encouragement
So here I am
Back , all fresh and new
Determined to continue writing until you all recieve the last chapter