|Doom's Gibel|

Chapter Two

{Pendant~}

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Despite my utmost effort in keeping my cool and giving a placid face I stammer, "W-what?"

"It is a genetic disease which breaks down the nerve cells on the brain over time", he explains.

Well, that isn't ghastly at all.

Hesitantly I ask, although I was well aware that the answer wouldn't be in my favour, "Is there any cure for it?"

"Treatments can help, but unfortunately no. There isn't any cure", he grimaces

Slowly I nod my head, what else was I expecting?

"...How much time do I have left?"
"Maximum three months"

I suck in a deep breathe.

Three months? Way less than what I had anticipated. I literally have my entire 20s left to enjoy.

He straightens his spine and places his hand on the table, forming a firm fist. I knew what was coming next.
"Ms. Lee let's get you hospitalised-"

"I would actually prefer to continue living the way I have been until now", I interrupt politely.

Treatment or not, I was dying anyways.
I would die spending my time with my friends and loved ones, rather than getting pitied and dying on a hospital gown with loads of drips plastered all over my body.

"Ms. Lee as of now you may find no change in your body, but as time goes by you will start facing limb pain, headaches; difficulty while walking and even understanding things", his brows form a knot in worry

I smile, "I really do appreciate your concerns, but I wouldn't like to get hospitalised as of now. In case I can't handle it then I would definitely inform you."

Respecting my decision, he gives up.

Giving a small and respectful bow, I get up from my seat to take my leave.

"Here's your report, my number and some medicines, in case the pain gets too overwhelming. It helps to suppress them for a while. Call me instantly if you are in trouble; be it anything. I'm open 24/7 okay?"

He sure is a gentleman.

"Thank you Dr. Kim"
"Actually Jin would be better", he smiles genuinely
"Rosé"

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I'm dying.

This news should have shattered my world, made rivers flow out of my eyes; however I was just...... numb.

It felt so surreal.
Probably that's why I wasn't as devastated as a normal person would be, since my brain was still processing this information and.. it just wasn't ready to accept it.
I wasn't ready to accept it.
I found it so unfair.

There are people who commit sins that deserve punishments worse than death, yet they get to live and are alive.
If they are getting to live why can't I?

At least give me few more years to live, isn't three months way too cruel?

My phone's notification interrupts my thoughts.