As It Was...

Dear Patience..

Niall's POV (I'm one evil bitch ha!)

"Oh,For God's sake Niall are you good at anything?!!" He barged in fuming

"I- I'm-" "Shut it! You should have told me,you weren't capable of doing it"He yelled at me again..and i took a shaky breath in..

"Look Shawn I didn't mean it..it was just an accident.." I said hoping he'd let it go..

"You! You burn my shirt while ironing it,get my phone wet and say it was all an accident" he seethed clenching his jaw...

"You know what i was the dumb one of the two of us to ask you to do anything right!" He screamed and my eyes filled with tears due to the sheer harshness it was laced in..i wiped my tears quickly cause i knew it'd only anger him more..

"Oh so you burnt your hand too! Fucking brilliant, you're worst than a child, you're a mess!"He said sarcastically and left..

I know i deserve it..He was right..
I'm a mess..
That's why everyone leaves me...
I'm always the one at fault..
I'm the reason for it all..

But how long will everyone hate me for?

I can't even give anyone a tad bit of happiness..

I'm always the one who spoils the mood...with it's dumbness..

But how long can it go on patience?

Dear patience
Can we share a drink and let go of the pressure?
Dear patience
'Cause the last time that we talked seems like forever, and ever..

No matter the effort i put in making everyone happy it's never enough..

I wonder why? Maybe because I'm not likeable anymore..cause it's pretty obvious that my listeners don't really enjoy my music..i was just a fortunate lad with a pretty much talked about Irish luck..

Why do they always forget me?
Don't i have a luck anymore?
Why am I always left alone?

Feels like you don't even know me
Just me and the stars can get lonely..

Shawn,Well he's someone I'm good friends with..really..good friends..
He isn't all that bad it's just that he's stressed out because of his girlfriend..so he comes around..to have a talk and do things..to me.. with me

he already said nothing goes out of these four walls....and i just fall too fast...

Hey, can you show your face?
Can you see that I'm anxious?
Can you hear what I'm saying, saying?
Hey, 'cause I fall too fast
And I go down blazing
Can you hear what I'm saying?

I got up and went to the kitchen to make the both of us some food and also grab some pedigree for Rian!..My little furry friend...

I opened his room to find it empty..

"Ri!!!" I called out and soon i felt the little lad sniffing my feet and running in circles around me..he jumped up and i ordered him to sit and he did eager to get his food already..

"Here you go buddy!" I said petting his head and got a ruff! In return..

I headed back assembling the items to prepare some poutine for Shawn ...I wish i atleast make this good enough..

I quickly peeled and started cutting the fries..i quickly pit them in cold water and started boiling the oil and let it fry for good 4-5 minutes..once they were fried i put the cheese curds in them..