As It Was...

The most beautiful thing

Niall's POV

Now that everyone has forgotten me once again.. I've started taking therapy sessions..which i really needed according to Lewis..

Have been going there for a 3 weeks now and all that the therapist said was that I'm supposed to find hope.
And that life's beautiful..

So i did..

I dream of it everyday..every second of every minute..

Will it be a pavement or a sidewalk
When I finally lay my eyes on you?
Someone I've already loved
will you find your way out of the blue?

How will it go? How will we survive together? Will He love as much as I'll love him?

Will it be my flat or your apartment
When I finally realize I do?
Will we meet on Baker Street
Or find ourselves on Melrose Avenue?

I wonder how would he look..will he have big brown,green or blue eyes??Will he have ginger,raven, brunette or blonde hair? Will he be the most seraphic man I'll ever see?damn! I don't even know who they're.

I don't know who you are
But I'll save you a seat
Hang my coat on a chair next to me
I tried to reassure the waiter
Say you're down the street
He laughed at me
So here's to you
The most beautiful thing that I have never seen..

This gives me hope..Hope to live and laugh..and dream of love..

I'm getting better already..i went to play golf just yesterday after months of not even touching the golf course..I also went live on Instagram 4 days ago where i interacted with my fans...who much to my surprise still love me!they asked me numerous questions..the one that caught my eyes was.."what love means to me??"

And I smiled like a crackhead answering it.. "maybe it's all about compatibility or maybe the situation they're in..maybe it's all just in the eyes, it's like you've got everything but nothing without it"

Someone on a screen asked me a question
Something about what love means to me
Maybe it's just circumstance
Or general compatibility..

I know i Haven't been the luckiest when it comes to "love" but there's a flicker of hope lingering somewhere in the sheer darkness of my crappy life..

I know i just..am...ugh
All i do is write songs and sleep..so maybe romanticizing with life wouldn't be all that bad afterall..

I don't know who you are
But I'll save you a seat
Hang my coat on a chair next to me
I tried to reassure the waiter
Say you're down the street
He laughed at me
So here's to you
The most beautiful thing that I have never seen!

I have everything a guy my age dreams of..that ya know the stability..i don't have to worry about the bills..i have to worry about nothing at all...and that's what turns life into a barren forest..of emptiness.. that's what turns me so damn NUMB..to anything and everything..

Maybe if love is what setting the greif in me then maybe it'll be the one who'll take me back to when i was all bubbly and happy...So that i can be likeable again,pretty please?

I entered my room after the long,long day at the golf court..i collapsed on me bed..and shut my eyes.. moaning at the slight pain in my back..

I really need water right now..but I'm to lazy to get up for it.. It's like such a huge task to do..my phone started buzzing with the fooking alarm and i groaned..

"Ah! time for antidepressants,yay!!" I thought to my self.. slowly getting up from the bed..my eyes are so damn droopy right now..maybe i can just sleep the thirst away..and maybe ski- "No shut up Horan,stop being a brat! You're not a big baby!" I mumbled to myself.. getting up and walking out..

Chugging down my medicine with a huge class of water..and that's when i heard the wooden floor pitter-pattering..i turned around to see none other than Rian.. rushing towards me.. waggling his tail.

"No,Ri ugh" *thud!* he attacked me making me fall onto the ground! And started licking all over my face nugging me slightly..his way of asking me to pet him which occurs RARELY.. he'd just sniff and lick me and whenever I'm about to touch he'd runaway..such a brat!..he sniffed every part of my body and sat down..bowing his head for me to pet..

"Aww sweetie!" I said petting his head when he woofed! And rubbed his head against my hand..

I leaned forward to hold him and he ran away yet again!! Grrrr!!!

Things are looking up i guess..

"Being a hopeless romantic is far,far better than being in depression" I thought smiling and shuffling back to my room where..Layed Rian already sleeping..
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Thoughts on Neil??and Um nothing.. I'm tired..Bye- Anna 😶