A blooming mind

Poem 9

I can't keep it inside!

A ball of fire is burning in my stomach,

I can't swallow.

Breathing has become hard,

And my heart aches.

I feel it getting bigger and bigger every minute!

My mind's stuck,

I can't think anymore.

I'm about to reach the red line,

To loose myself.

Please, calm down, stay inside...

But I know unfortunetly

That I can't win this fight.

So I let him go,

get outside of me.

The monster who grew within me

is destroying everything!

My body doesn't respond to me anymore,

Cold water is penetrating  my lungs,

making me suffocate,

The darkness is filling my head.

I'm lost, and no one is going to rescue me...

It always was like that,

Me ending up hurting people.

So why would they stay with me?

Why would they help me?

Enough!

I want to get out of here,

I don't wanna hurt people anymore,

I must contain this monster deep inside of me,

I must seal "Anger" in me,

So it won't see the daylight.

I am tired of being alone all the time

Because of him.

From now on,

I will live my full life peacefuly,

without him...