☆𝐽𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝐿𝑒𝑡 𝐺𝑜☆ 𝐵𝑦 :𝑀𝑖𝑛_𝑎𝑛𝑐𝑒

Ch. 2✓

*Three weeks before he died*
"you know dear...hearts don't break they bruise and bruises heal"

Those were the last words his grandmother told him. That night his grandmother had a heart attack and sadly enough she didn't make it.

That was he's breaking point he couldn't take it anymore. He was now leaving with his aunt and she was a drug addict making her abusive.

School was bad enough. Sam and  Andrew were  always together not even daring to talk to him. They didn't even come to his grandmother's burial and that was enough to show him how much he was all  alone against this world.

*Present time*

I don't understand my life  anymore.

First I  broke up with my boyfriend then he started dating my best friend even though we were both meant to share him.

Then in the same day hours later my grandmother dies I felt so alone.

I walked through the halls as I headed for my locker. When I opened it I felt someone slam it shut.

I looked behind me and suddenly I was pushed onto the floor. Yes of course it was my bully Jack the jerk (huh that rhymes). I hissed in pain as I felt someone step on my broken arm that was plastered

"S...stop please" I begged knowing that this time Sam wouldn't be there to defend me even though I was hoping that I was wrong

"Aww where's your knight in shining armor Sam isn't he supposed to protect you"one of Jack's friends joked

I felt emotionally hurt after he said that didn't he know?

I chocked back sob when I saw Sam staring at me together with Andrew both with guilt in there eyes. They both just stood there like idiots staring at me being bullied.

I winced in pain when I felt a sharp pain on my jaw Jack had just punched me. and that wasn't the end I  was kicked in various places painfully.

The bell suddenly rang and it was time for classes.

"I guess I'll be skipping today" I said to myself as I headed for the washrooms

I washed off the blood on my face and stared at the mirror then I suddenly remembered Sam. He always defended me why didn't he do it today or was it because of Andrew.

I blinked multiple times trying not to cry. I know that I was acting like a baby always crying all the time. That's what they always say and called me Baby Gabby cause I couldn't hold back my tears.

How did it come to this. I didn't deserve this. I was angry at everyone. I was angry at Sam for breaking up with me without any  warning and Andrew for taking my boyfriend away. Then there's my grandmother for suddenly leaving me in this shitty world.

But at least I have my aunt who always reminded me what a worthless piece of shit I was. Hearing those words everyday just made me know how the world works.

*Evening*
I decided to talk to him I just couldn't stand it anymore. I needed an explanation as to why he left me alone.

I waited for him behind the school building unexpectedly he showed up with Andrew. 

I wiped my eyes trying not to show that I was crying.
"Why?" I suddenly asked looking at them both holding hands.

They both looked confused and that made me break in anger "God damnit Sam don't act all innocent here you know what you both did so why did you do it" I yelled out of frustration

Sam let out a sigh "look I get it that your upset but I love Andrew now and plus we both knew that we weren't meant to be, even though Andrew was supposed to love us both he just loved me and I couldn't miss the chance, Andrew is my soulmate and someday you'll find someone who makes you happy" he explained.

After hearing those stupid words I burst out in tears "you jerk do you even care about how I feel. You are the person that makes me happy , we have been dating for two years for haven's sake and you decided to end it all just like that because my best friend didn't love me"I said through tears. I didn't know how  I felt anymore sad,angry,frustrated, jealous
I looked at both of them angrily

"I hope you feel happy, the both of you,I hope that one day you'll come to your senses to what you have done " I said putting on my fake smiles even though tears still kept on flowing. I then turned around and walked away.

" Gabby wait!"Andrew who had been silent the whole time  shouted but I ignored him. I walked away from them. At least I made Sam happy that's all I need even though I won't be the one to hold his hand when on dates or cuddle together or even get married at least he meet his soulmate even though it wasn't me...

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When I opened the house door I got a  beating of a lifetime
"Why were you late you little brat do you know how I have waited for you to make me dinner" my aunt yelled in her drunk state.

I yelped in pain as she stepped in my stomach leaving bruises everywhere. How did it come to this. I had everything I wanted a boyfriend a best friend a perfect highschool life, I home that I felt welcomed in and last but not least a wonderful guardian but it all disappeared within a day.

But now I felt like everything I loved was out of my reach. Lost in the abyss It felt like I was nothing to anyone anymore.

When I reached my room. I took out a small red box from under the bed and opened it.

I took out a razor blade and stared at it. Was this really the road I wanted to take.

Maybe just maybe if I felt a little pain I'd feel better. So I started cutting myself the first put felt extremely painful but after some time the pain felt numb and I started feeling good. Feeling the pain as the blood oozed. I smile formed on my lips as I discovered a new way to make myself feel happy.

SQA:A million words would not bring you back I know because I tried, neither will a million tears I know because I cried.
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Sry for the late updateಠ﹏ಠ

P.s I was too lazy to go through this chapter and look for any mistakes so if you find some please fix it yourself ಠᴥಠ

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