Blurred Visions of Tomorrow

Angry Andy

"No. Not my grandson." Andy's soul crushing scream had been playing over and over in Bella's head on repeat for the past six days. That's how long Teddy has been missing. Bella had been kicking herself. "How could I have been so fucking stupid. Of course it wasn't Cissy. How did I forget Teddy?" Bella chanted as she paced back and forth in front of her soul healer.

"Bella, please sit down." Dr. Blake had been urging Bella to sit for the last thirty minutes. "We've talked about how this obsessive thought processing isn't productive."

"Obsessive?" Bella nearly shrieked. "My nephew was taken by someone madder than me and you are calling my behavior obsessive? I let my little sister down. Her grandson was taken and she's refused to come out of her room for the past six days. All we hear outside is constant sobbing. She's turned everyone away including Twiggy and Luna. Who turns them away?" Bella let out a low growl and she rolled her eyes and finally plopped down in the seat her soul healer was pointing to. "Fine. Happy now?" Bella crossed her arms over her chest like a child.

"Bella, what happened to Teddy wasn't your fault."

Bella scoffed, cutting her off before she could continue, "oh wasn't it? Because if you recall back many months ago to Hermione's first letter, this person has a problem with me. Something I did so many years ago that I can't even remember. I was so far gone back then I can't recall all the shitty things I did or sort through them to even begin to sort out who might have Teddy. If something happens to him, Andy will never forgive me." Bella sighed and cupped her face in her hands adding in a whisper, "I'll never forgive myself."

"Your sister's reaction to the trauma she is facing is normal. It's appropriate behavior to cut everyone off and deal with emotions alone." Dr. Blake came over to sit next to Bella on the sofa in the corner of her office. "She'll come around. She needs time to process what happened. Not everyone grieves in the same way."

"I just wish she would rage and lash out at me. That I can deal with. Screaming and yelling... I can deal with that. I can't deal with her cutting me off like this. I can't concentrate on finding Teddy when I know she's at home falling apart." Bella got up and walked over to the other side of the office where the big picture window was, "Teddy's birthday is next week. He'll be six."

"How does that make you feel?"

Bella turned her head around and stared at her soul healer like she had three heads. "How does it make me feel?" She asked incredulously. "It makes me feel like absolute shit. He should be here with us planning for the big day but he's gone and we aren't." Bella screamed and threw her wand across the room out of frustration. "I'm sorry. I'm having trouble controlling myself."

"That's completely understandable, now come over here and sit and we can come up with ideas on how you can help your sister deal with her stress right now." Dr Blake patted the cushion next to her and Bellatrix slumped her shoulders as she walked over and fell onto the couch next to the older woman.

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Bella left her soul healer appointment determined to get through to Andy but quickly had her hopes crushed when she walked through the floo of Grimmauld Place only to find her baby sister looking sad on the couch in the drawing room. Bella quickly handed her robes to Twiggy and set off to sit next to her sister on the couch. She put her arm around Narcissa's back and pulled her into her side. "Cissy, what happened? Why are you so upset?"

"Andy yelled at me." The youngest black sister spoke softly.

"You spoke with her? Did she let you in the room?" Bella asked a little too eager which made her youngest sister scowl at her.