The Man in my life

Get the girl you love

Joseph's pov

It's been about 3 weeks since I last saw Becky,I would be lying if I said I didn't miss her. I missed her so much. Nicole hadn't been here so I was waiting for my lectures.

My door opened and sure enough,there she strolled in.

"Hey Joe,where's Becky?"She asked with a confused look

"She doesn't work here anymore"I said firmly

"What happened?"She asked whilst she sat down.

I paused for a second,I really don't need this now

"She just quit"I shrugged.

She got up and shut the door.

"That's bullshit-I know you guys had sex she told Dean,Dean told me. Joseph what happened?"

"Nothing,it has nothing to do with you either!"I snapped

"What the fuck happened?"She snapped back

"I FELL IN LOVE!"I snapped-I didn't just

"YOU IDIOT-YOU IDIOT YOU DONT END THINGS IF YOU ARE IN LOVE!!!"

"I DO-I'm not supposed to love okay,Nicole all I do is hurt people"I hissed back

"No you don't you're just afraid of something that won't even happen,JOSEPH YOU WILL NEVER BE YOUR FATHER,you need Becky"She pleaded

"I don't I'll find another and move on I don't care anymore"I sighed quietly

"You do,cause if you saw that woman now you'd cry because you love her. Joseph,you're in love"

"I'm not I just I wanted to protect her from me okay Jesus"

"Maybe you should've thought of that before you put your dick in her and treated her like a queen just to throw it away!"Nicole said as she stormed out.

I don't care anymore,I'm far from caring about anyone anymore.

My door opened and my father stepped inside.

He shut the door and sighed,sitting down in front of me and just looking at me.

"Why the blue face son?"He asked me

"Nothing"

"Joseph,talk to me"He said softly

"I don't wanna talk about it,I already have had my lecture from Nicole you can go now"I pointed at the door whilst I wrote.

"No,not until my boy tells me why he's not okay"

"Im not your boy,you know that,I'm not your son. You just felt bad for me. Then married my mom so you could be the happy little husband she's always wanted. I am sick and I'm tired of trying to be someone. Im him I'm not your son,hell I'm just a clone of him. I hurt and take what I want and throw it and dump into what ever shit hole I don't care about. Im not an Anoa'i I'm a torturer"

"No you're not,you are my boy and no I didn't take you in cause I felt bed for and your mother. I took you in because I fell in love with this little boy who put a smile on my face every time I saw him. Even though he was going through hell,he tried his very best to stay strong and help in anyway he could"He paused and looked at me deeply in the eyes,tears filling mine along with his.

"You protected your mother even thought you knew you'd get a beating. But you didn't care Joseph,I love you,don't you get that. My son that's what you are you're not his you are an Anoa'i,you may be his blood,but you are my son and that I care about,you and your mother are my world son. Nothing can ever change that. I was so blessed to not only be your uncle,but to a father figure in your life Joseph you are so precious to me. I love you son"

I broke down crying and he got up holding me close and pulled my head into his chest.

"You're always my boy no matter what,you're always my son. I'm always gonna be here for you. Understand"He whimpered

"Yeah dad. Dad?"

"Yeah?"

"I love you too. I know I don't say it much but I do"I sobbed out.

"It's okay,I know you do"

"Wanna talk to me?"

I nodded my head and wiped my eyes.

"Urm-basically,I lost the love of my life. Because I'm scared dad-I'm scared I'm gonna be like him and I'm so afraid to have kids because I'm scared I'd be abusive because I just-"I cried and he stopped me

"You look at me,"He grabbed my arm

"Joseph you would be an amazing father,you would give your child or your children a father Joseph,not just any father,but a loving and caring one who won't let harm come toward his children. But,I'm guessing it was Becky the girl?"

I nodded my head,

"Yeah"I laughed with a smile stuck on my face.

"I knew something was going on with you two"he smiled at me

"Yeah,she was my everything"I smiled,then the smile dropped off my face.

"Hey,I know it hurts"He said rubbing my shoulder.

"I fucked it up dad,everything,everytime I think of her all I can feel is pain. I can't even talk about her otherwise I get chocked up. I just wish,I wish I didn't end things"I whimpered with tears streaming down my face.

"Joseph,listen to me you love this girl,give her time to recover and then go after her. Prove to her that you love her"My dad said

"I don't know if I'm enough for her anymore. So the saying is true,money doesn't buy you happiness. I just wish I'd go home now and she would be there. I just wish I could hold her. I'm so lost without her. From the first glance,when she bumped into me,man dad I was blown away"I smiled with the tears still down my face.

He smiled at me.

"Son,this is what love feels like-you know this is how I felt when I saw your mother. You know now in your heart,you love her"

"What do I do dad?"

"You go get the girl you love"