The Man in my life

Day after

Becky's pov

I still couldn't believe I had slept with Joseph,I woke up remembering the small detail about not being allowed to touch his chest. He still never spoke about why,he just said everyone isn't allowed. I just hope it's not anything that caused him trauma.

I walked to his office to drop off some folders of WWE superstars that want a heel or face. His door was open and he sounded angry with whoever was in there with him.

"TOLD YOU BEFORE TO HANDLE IT NOW I GET THE SHIT!"He screamed

"Sir please,I didn't know"

"ENOUGH GET THE FUCK OUT!"

A young man walked out with a sad look,I walked into Joseph,his hand covering his face and he threw his pen on his desk,his eyes locked with me.

"You heard all that shit didn't you?"He asked with a frustrated voice. I closed his door and sat down in front of him.

"You okay?"I asked him softly

"No-do I fucking look okay?"He snapped in a sarcastic tone

"Don't even dare Joseph"I said firmly he looked at me and huffed.

"No I'm not okay,I'm far from okay"He sighed.

"Okay talk to me"I said he looked confused

"Why'd you care anyways?"

"Cause if you don't get your anger out now,your gonna take it out on the wrong Person and they'll punch you in your face"

"I could do with that-my mind's fucked"He hissed

"Tell me"I said gently,I reached over and gently rubbed his hand

"Fine-I've been fucked with some lazy bastard didn't do the books yesterday,now if tax people come I'm fucked cause I don't know how much I made-well the company made last night"

"Okay right,was that so difficult to tell me without yelling?"I asked he nodded and sighed.

"Yes it was-I'm sorry Becky"He breathed out

"Just talk to me instead of yelling at me then I can yell,well not just me but your staff"

"Yeah,I'm just-I have anger issues okay and I don't like asking for help"He sighed

"It's okay to ask for help"I said he looked at me

"Can I hug you?"He asked

"Come here"I said he walked around the desk and wrapped his arms around me,I made sure I didn't rest against his chest or touch him.

"You can rest your head on my chest,it's more like when I'm bare chested is when I don't allow it"He said

"Why?there's nothing wrong with you"I asked looking up into his eyes as he stared down.

"I just I don't know how explain things"He sighed and cuddled me.

"I got all the time in the world,use it wisely Anoa'i"I smiled up he smiled and lent down,he kissed me.

Joseph's pov

I don't know why I kissed her,I just wanted too. I never did that with anyone,yeah I'll kiss people randomly but she-she makes me feel some sorta way man.

I pulled away and still held her in my arms,I didn't want to let go. God Damn it Joseph.

I pulled away and cleared my throat

"Sorry about that anyway,can we sort out the books together please?"i asked she smiled and nodded at me.

"It's okay,if it help then that's all that matters"She shrugged

It did more then help me Becky-being with you helps me.

We walked out of my office and to the office with all the books.

"Here I'll do smackdown viewership you can do tickets"She said and I nodded

She really helps me out-I couldn't help but stop what I was doing and glance at this gorgeous woman. How could he have treated her so poorly? She's so fucking perfect. Yet,even if I wanted her,I'd be too ashamed to be even say I had a liking to her,yes we've slept together and it was the best night I had spent with someone.

But she doesn't deserve someone like me,someone broken torn between so much shit and pain. I just wanted to be normal,the boy I used to know before the abuse,that's who I wanted to be,but you can't go back. That's what hurts.

She looked up and caught me looking at her.

"Joseph?"She said softly.

I locked the door and lifted her onto the desk.

"I need you now"I growled into her ear. She reached up and slammed her lips onto mine.

I shouldn't be doing this,I'll get feelings I don't want feelings,but I need her,you need her Joseph.

You need her Joseph,she makes you desire to be a better man.

I groaned as I slipped into her,everything was so fucking meaningful with her. My mind's fucked. I need her but I don't want to love her. I don't want feelings but I sunk in the feeling of her.

Our moans echoing into each other's ears,her arms wrapped around my neck holding me close whilst I pumped into her. Fuck

Fuck,I want this-I want this girl.