Starry Night

CHAPTER III

Sa mga sumunod na araw ay naging abala ako sa school. Kung dati ay nakakatulog pa ako, ngayon naman ay halos hindi na ako natutulog dahil sa dami ng ginagawa. Halos araw-araw ata ay nagbibigay sila ng quizzes and recitations kaya araw-gabi ang pagbabasa ko.

I know that I hate this field. But you know, I'm still trying. I'm trying to give anything and everything I can even all the efforts needed just to make things work out.

Kahit naman kasi hindi mo gusto ang ginagawa mo, once na nasanay ka na matututunan mo naman kung paano ito tanggapin na lang. Hindi dahil sa no choice ka pero dahil natututunan mo na kung paano mo ito pahahalagahan at mahalin ang ginagawa mo.

That's why I keep on trying even though it's hard for my side since I'm not that good at some things like this. But you know it made me think and realized something like if I didn't do anything by now, I know the time will come, I'll surely regret everything co'z I didn't do my best and didn't do any move just to make things work out.
And I don't want that to happen.

Akala ng lahat ay wala akong pakialam about sa acads and sa future ko. Pero walang nakakalam na takot ako. I'm afraid kung magiging successful ba ako sa field na 'to. 'Yung fear na mabigo ako, yung pressure ng pamilya ko sa akin kasi I came from a family of well-known doctors in the country  at ang walang katapusang what ifs sa utak ko. No one knows how mess up I am.

Kagagaling ko lang ng University dahil may klase kami kanina kahit Sabado ngayon. Hirap maging med student. Kahit weekends ay need mong pumasok. Kahit tamarin ka bawal um-absent. Attentance is always a must. Bawal kasi mag-skip ng lessons dahil mahirap makahabol.

Napatingin ako sa labas nang bumuhos ang malakas na ulan.Bakit sunod-sunod ata ang pag-ulan these days?May bagyo ba?Wala akong nababalitaang weather forecast. Ganoon na ba ako ka-out dated na pati weather forecast ay hindi ko na rin alam?

Inubos ko muna ang Americano na in-order ko bago tuluyang tumayo. Akmang lalabas na ako nang biglang bumukas ang glass door at pumasok ang isang lalaki. Medyo basa ang buhok nito pati na rin ang suot nitong puting long sleeves.

I tilted my head as I examine him. Lagi ba talaga siya nandito?Bakit sa tuwing pupunta ako rito ay lagi kaming nagkikita?Is this a coincidence or sadiyang dito lang talaga ang favorite tambayan niya?

"Alam mong umuulam pero sumuong ka pa rin. What's with you?" hindi ko napigilan pang magsalita.

Sometimes I really hate this mouth. Ang dapat na nasa isip ko lang ay nasasabi ko at minsan ay masiyadong insensitive at wala ring preno. What if  mag-order ako ng bagong bibig?Yung tipong hindi na nagsasalita para hindi ako napapahamak 'no.

"Ah about that. Actually Ah, I let someone used my umbrella but up until now she didn't return it to me. That's why I don't have anything to use right now." He said with full of sarcasm. Halatang ako ang pinariringgan.

I raised my brows at him.

"Can't you tell it straight to my face na ako 'yung tinutukoy mo?" I asked, sarcastically.

"You know, I want to play a good boy here."he then smirked.

Can I  smack his face with my fist right away? He's so annoying and I hate it. So much.

"Good boy my ass. Can you please stop playing around?Can you?"

"What if I don't want to?"

Good thing dahil walang masiyadong tao sa café. Tiyak na magiging center of attention kaming dalawa kung sakali. I know the staffs were looking at us. But I don't mind. Hindi ako nanggugulo. Unless, this guy in front of me, will pissed me off.

"I'm warning you." I said with a threatening voice.

"You're cute when you're mad." he chuckled.

I felt my cheeks heated up. Did he just complimented me or insulted me? I can't figure out. But that's not my concern. My heart... my heart is not in its normal heart rate. Why is that?