Poems of lifetime

Confusion

You spin my head and twirl my
world around.

Still takes a shot when a
chance is found.

Should I continue or not?
My head's a merry-go-round.

Oh, I love you so much,
but can't tell, not a sound

Should I hide or show,
keep it or let it flow?

Will you embrace my dear
love when I let it show?

Are you going to regret or
relief when I let go?

Is everything really worth it?
or am I still happy doing so...

I am lost in this endless
abyss of insecurity.

Non-stop loving, falling and
painful misery.

Your feelings and whereabouts
still remains mystery.

But this losing game, I still find it painfully lovely.

What I know is I am sure of
my love and effort.

As said, I marked it in stone and I stand forth.

In these words I will not
regret or abort.

Hence my feelings for you are genuine and worth.

I don't ask for a return, or an immediate answer.

I'll wait and stay, beyond a
withering flower.

I promise to stay and wait even
if I get older.

I'll wait and stay...and try to preserve the promised forever.