My Life A Lesson

Chapter Twelve

Love makes you pure till your heart is on the edge

Makes you cry

Tear you apart

Troubles you by inflicting pains

Then it becomes your salvation

Make you become whole again

Make you forget the troubles and pains

Then make your heart yearn for more

© Easyease_pen

"Am sorry, I don't know what got over me, I don't even know what I was thinking, I never meant to use you, am sorry for what happened" he said. I was just looking like a dummy because am exhausted from my emotions, I don't have the strength to talk or do anything again, all that was ringing in my brain was Why? Why? Why?... I mentally blamed myself so much for coming to his place in this state of mine, I blamed myself for not going inside the bathroom with towel, when he saw I was not saying anything he left the room, I changed my position on his bed and slept of.

It was in the morning I woke up, I looked around the room it wasn't familiar I quickly sit up then realization hit me... You are at Ayobami's place because of what happened yesterday then memories of what happened rushed in, I had sex with a best friend of my husband and I... I cringe at the statement I made, I felt like a whore, the sex that ruined my life, why am I always vulnerable? Why is my life a rolling dice? I begin to cry again. After crying to my satisfaction, I left for the bathroom this time I didn't forget going with the towel.

After bathing, I changed into the clothes I wore the previous day, I went into the sitting room and saw Ayobami on one of his two-seaters cushion. I was just looking at the man in my presence, how should I regard him? A friend? A sex mate? I don't even know, I wonder how he sees me now.

"Good morning" I heard bringing me out of my reverie, i nodded in reply.

"I contemplated on coming to knock on your door before"... when he didn't hear my reply he continued... "Let's eat please" I nod in reply again and walked to the dinning area, I saw the food on his dinning table it is covered with another ceramic plate, I opened it and was face with Jollof rice mixed with Fried rice and chicken, he must have ordered it. I ate to my satisfaction not for once did I took a glance at Ayobami yet I knew his stares can unclothe me, after finishing every grain of the food I made a move to stand up.

"Lade am sorry about yesterday, I don't mean for that to happened, I would never want to take advantage of you that would be the least thought on my mind after what you've been through, I was just... You know what... I'm truly deeply sorry, please forgive me"  Ayobami said, I can see an iota of truth in him but I just can't let that slide the memory is still fresh.. "but you have a share of blame in what happened" "Shut up and get lost!" I scold my subconscious mind.

"I'm going home" I said instead and stand up leaving for the door, "wait let me drop you off" I heard him say, I just stand without saying anything... Sha be fast, I can't face you again! I yelled inwardly. How are we going to work in office with this thing that happened, can we go back to being friends? Should i tell Shinaayo about it? Won't it cause another trouble? This is a pickle, it sure left me in quandary... I was soliloquizing to myself "Let's go" I heard and I walk out with him to his car.

The drive was so silent and the atmosphere in his car was very cold, the only sound that we are hearing was the one coming from his car stereo, it's okay by me because I don't even want to start a conversation with him.

He drove in to our compound, "Thanks for the ride" I said and left to go in my apartment, I didn't even wait for his reply but I could hear him say something and made a deep sigh afterwards, well I care less, I'm home!

On getting to the sitting room, I didn't see anyone, where is Shinaayo? The door is even left open, I walked in to the bedroom and saw Shinaayo on the floor with bottles of alcohol scattered around, he has been drinking, on seeing the state he is and the mess he made I don't know when I start to cry again, the sound woke him up.

"Lade, you are back? Thank you for coming back to me, am sorry..." he said and starts to cry "...Ife am sorry sincerely, I shouldn't have done what I did, am sorry for all the pains I have caused you, I promise to change for good and make it up with you" he said amidst the sobs again, God our life is a mess. I helped him up without saying anything but I couldn't help but give him a bone-crushing hug, I miss the sweet side of him.

After countless minutes of crying and asking for forgiveness, we came into conclusion to rekindle our extinguish love and never keep secrets from each other but I couldn't bring myself to tell him what happened between Ayobami and I.

We made love, bathe afterwards arranged the room and head to the kitchen to cook, Shinaayo hit the stool in the kitchen saying.. "oya sit let's this magic hands make some mouth watering and mind warming food for you" we laughed together at his statement.. The new us will sure be a better us.

"Dear Lord, don't let us experience pains again, make our bond stronger, any evil spirit that is in our lives and marriage shall be destroyed by your power, light up our lives and marriage, make us better and experience nothing but love and joy" I prayed inwardly.

"Amen" Shinaayo said, my eyes almost bulge out of it's socket "haahann be calming down, I knew you since 1990 kokoro, 760 pinishin, I know when you are praying even without saying it out, thank you my prayer warrior"

"Oh" I smiled "you are welcome" I replied and he nod with a smile as well.

"Let me help you to slice the onion" I stand up and he pass the onion to me, we started gisting as if nothing happened before now.

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1990 kokoro and 760 pinishin is just a way of saying I have known you for long.
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They are back together... It's for better and for worse na,, or I should scatter their marriage again?🤔🤔🤔🤔