double dealing - nct, chensung

⇄ 24 ⇄

"lele, kun bought your favourite ice cream!" jaemin declared, entering the chinese's room, only to find the younger lying on his bed, face down on his pillow. "lele?"

jaemin took careful steps towards the bed, and he sat down on it, just next to chenle.

"lele, are you awake?"

chenle answered by groaning loudly the sound being muffled by the pillow.

"come with us in the living room then. we're going to watch a movie with the hyungs while eating some ice cream."

chenle gave another groan as an answer, jaemin not understanding anything.

"lele, i can't understand anything you're saying when you have your head in your pillow."

the chinese male rolled around his bed, his eyes finding jaemin's caring ones.

"i said i wasn't hungry, hyung." he replied, his face contorted by sadness and pain.

"you really need to eat, chenle..." jaemin sighed.

"what's the point of eating anyway?"

"well... to keep you alive, first." jaemin explained, caressing the boy's white locks.

"but do i even want to be alive?"

jaemin didn't answer immediately.

this chenle had been the chenle they had had to deal with for the past year.

since jisung had left them twelve months ago, chenle had been completely depressed, refusing to eat plenty, and neglecting himself.

jisung's disappearance had sucked life out of chenle, and the other nct members were painfully aware of it.

"chenle, you can't say that..." jaemin sighed, pulling the younger closer to his body and allowing him to wrap his arms around jaemin.

"j-jisung left me..." chenle sniffed. "h-he left us..."

"and he did it against his will." jaemin tried comforting the boy. "trust me when i say he looked completely broken when he left. i assure you he didn't want to leave all of us behind."

"b-but he did..." chenle cried harder.

"he did that for our own good, le." jaemin explained. "he knew how nct's reputation would have been tarnished if he was still here among us, which is why he preferred disappearing."

chenle sniffed again, wetting jaemin's shirt as he used the fabric as a tissue.

"now, you deserve to be happy, chenle. you need to take your mind off things to live your life fully, okay? things are going to get better, i promise." jaemin spoke reassuringly as chenle nodded. "now let's go to the living room with the hyungs? you can choose the movie."

"okay..." chenle mumbled as jaemin stood up from the bed, lifting chenle with himself and putting the boy down on the floor.

jaemin took chenle's trembling hand in his own and he guided the boy towards the living room where the majority of the members were already sitting on the couches, searching for something to watch.

"look who decided to join us, hyungs." jaemin declared with a smile, pulling chenle to his side.

this made all the members coo loudly.

chenle was rarely out of his room, and despite going out of schedules and interviews, most of the members rarely saw chenle.

it was a miracle that the boy was out in the living room when all the other members were here.