The one time she goes to a bar(Pokimane)

Chapter 30

Jared's POV

No means a lot of different things to a lot of different people. To me it means, no I don't want to marry you, no I don't see a future with you, no I don't love you. I stayed there on one knee, shocked as she scurred away. I stayed there still on one knee. Our friends looked on at us in shock as well. I stared at where she once was, I couldn't look away. I always imagined about this day. She would put her hand over her mouth in shock and say yes. But no, that didn't happen. Imane just looked at me, shook her head and just walked away.

I finally looked away from where she was mere moments before. All of our friends were looking back at me. I slowly stand up and lean against the railing. As I do so, I close the box. Everyone awkwardly leaves everyone but Michael. He walked up to me, "You, okay?" he asks me. I couldn't respond to him. Nothing I could say would explain how I was feeling. I glanced up from the ground at him, a tear falls down my cheek.

 "Guess I'm sleeping on the couch" I tell him struggling to be myself and make a joke out of it. Michael nods at me.

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I slowly open my eyes. I can hear yelling, "THAT'S NOT WHAT IM SAYING".

"ARE YOU SURE?". I slowly lean up and look around.

"GOOD JOB HONEY YOU WOKE UP JARED" Michael yells.

"I DIDN'T WAKE HIM UP YOU DID" Lily says.

"Can you guys shut the hell up" I tell them. Two weeks, two weeks of just drinking my problems away. I could look through all my missed calls. Imane had called me at least five times a day over these past two weeks. Even Janet has done the same, and I haven't talked to her in a hot minute.

I looked at the couple arguing right in front of me. I wanted to ask what wrong, but that's none of my business. My head snaps to the left as I hear footsteps. Toast slowly enters the room, "Guys shut up I'm trying to stream" he says to them. They both stop talking and look over at him. He smirks as he goes to turn around, he stops when he sees me, "Jared you look terrible" he tells me.

"Yeah, I know" I respond to him. I stand up from the couch and walk into the bathroom. I turn on the shower before looking at myself in the mirror. I had lost about twenty pounds. Even though no one would say it, I reeked. My facial hair was all over the place and there were stains all over my shirt and pants. The ones I had been wearing for almost the last two weeks. I sigh as I start to undress to take a shower.

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"Come on dude" he says, "You've lost so much weight you need to eat".

"But I'm full" I whine.

"I don't give a shit" he responds.

"Michael, I don't want to eat anymore" I tell him.

"Dude, I don't care" he says, "You will eat this" He says slapping his steak on my plate.

"Dude" I start.

"Don't forget we are going to the gym tomorrow" he says.

"Michael" I whine.

"Jared" he says. I huff at him as I start to eat the steak. The five of us sat there quietly for a while. Eventually, John started to talk to Toast and slowly the rest of us start talking as well.

"Dude it was so awkward when her mom walked in" John says.

"John, I have a story almost exactly like that" Michael says. I smile as we continued to talk about stories. As time went on more and more people started to sit down at the other tables surrounding us. Eventually, after about an hour of being there we decide to leave. We walk out and start to head towards the car.

"JOHN" we all hear. Our heads snap back to see Jodi followed by Lily Sydney and Imane running towards us. I try to just walk away from them but John and Michael grab my arms and force me to stay in place.

"Hey honey" he says he says as he embraces her in a hug, "Why are you here?" John asks her.

"We were just out and saw you guys" she says. I eventually get away from the two and start to walk away.

"Babe" Imane says catching up to me, "Why haven't you came home?" she asks me. I stop in front of her.

"Why, because you rejected my proposal, do you think I want to go back home to the person that pretty much said I don't want to spend the rest of my life with you" I tell her, "Why would I want to go back to that?" I ask her.

"Because I love you" she says stuttering over because.

"Then why did you say no?" I ask her. Imane looks at me for a second before opening her mouth.

"I-I don't know" she tells me. I look at her before starting to leave again.

"I'm walking home" I tell them. Imane stops me again, "What do you want?" I ask her, starting to get pissed. She looked down at the ground.

"Listen you said no, I can live with that, so why don't you just leave me alone and we can move on with our lives?" I ask her.

"But I don't want to" she tells me.

"Then WHY did you say no?" I ask her. A tear starts to fall from her eye.

"I don't know" she tells me again.

"Listen you said no, that means you don't want to marry me" I start, "And that's fine just let's go our different ways, we hated each other for years why don't we just go back to that" I tell her.

"Jared, I don't think I'm ready to get married" she tells me.

"The fuck, you were the one that constantly talked about wanting to get married soon and wanting all that shit on streams but when I propose you back out" I tell her.

"Jared I'm sorry" she tells me.

"Whatever" I tell her walking past her, "I'll be home if you guys need me"

Imane's POV

I slowly walk back to everyone, "Well" John says, "That didn't quite work out" he says. All I could do is cry, I leaned on Lily and just cried. That's all I could do.

"Don't worry he will come around and see he's in the wrong" Lily says.

"No, no he won't" I say.

"How do you know that?" Jodi asks.

"Because he is in the right" I tell them bluntly.