Double update today since I didn't update for almost a month..
This time it'll be a bit different then what I normally do. I can't seem to be able to open the document where I kept all my writing.
*Warning: may trigger some
Once again, I have nowhere else to go. I've tried connecting with others, and I've tried connecting with myself. It's simply not enough though. I keep feeling regret and shame for things I've done, and I've tried leaving them in the past. It's hard though, and this journey is so lonely. I try to smile and laugh from time to time, but all it does is remind me how lonely I am. I'm done venting for today.
So the previous bit I wrote when I had started cutting. I felt regret for doing that as well as shame since I didn't want anyone to know and I felt embarrassed for cutting. It went to a point that I couldn't stop and I had multiple cuts in my arm. I used to wear long sleeves a lot and they wouldn't show.
Now I can't even open the file which had my writing in it. Nothing is working at this point, not sure how much longer this'll last. I lost everything of my writing I had done, I only have some of the writing I did this year. But knowing that I lost most of it, I'm not sure what to do. I can't retrieve the file it's long gone at this point.
Anyways that's all for today. Hope you have a good day/night. Take care & don't forget to stay safe.
