There's So Much Pain You Know

Chapter 6 - The Endless Beating Of Myself

Chapter 6- The Endless Beating of Myself

Violet's POV

 While Zoe was off getting food for her and Kyle, I was in my room. I was taking off Tate's bloody clothes and replacing them with a suit that Ben gave me. Right after I brushed his hair a little Kyle walked in slightly drunk.

          "Hey baby." He slurred walking over to me and placing a sloppy kiss on my chapped bloody lips.

          "Kyle get off of me, I'm not Zoe." I said trying to push him off of me, but failing miserably. After him trying to kiss me multiple times the front door slams. Kyle then gets off of me noticing that I am not his fiancé.

          "Fuck, fuck, fuck!!!" He whispered to himself. He wiped his lips of then whispered to me

          "This meant nothing sis." Then ran out the door to help out Zoe. I just sat there, my face blank and my heart hurting.

Not because he kissed me and almost cheated with his fiancé but that I enjoyed it ever so slightly. That it reminded me of Tate's lips in a way. And man I miss Tate's lips.

          I found myself waking up on the floor at around 2:20AM that night, not noticing that I fell asleep on the floor. I get up and got up kind of fast because I almost blacked out right and there. I looked at my bed and saw that Tate's body was gone and my sheets too. I walked downstairs to the basement. I heard the washer running and then saw Kyle outside burying Tate outside. I walked outside and felt the cold LA air hit me like a ton of bricks.  

          "Why the hell are you burring Tate out in the middle of the night. You could do that in the morning. Why now?" I asked him, bringing my arms close to me to keep in my heat.

          "Because if I didn't you would become too attached to the body and we need to get rid of him before he starts to rot." He said. He turned his head and looked at me. His eyes were bloodshot and his face was pale.

          "Kyle where is Zoe?" I asked.

          "She left." He said digging more into the shallow hole; I grabbed the other shovel that was on the ground that was near Tate's body that was wrapped in plastic. That must have been something that Zoe picked up before she left.

          "Why?" I asked, helping him dig more.

          "Because she smelt the alcohol in my breath and noticed my lips were a little swollen. She left right then and there. She caused a huge commotion and I am shocked that you slept through her exploding. It was quite a scene even for my drunken mind. So after she left I sobered up and started burring him before I started to loss it." He said. After that we stayed silent. Digging and the shovels hitting each other was the only sound we made for about 30 minutes. By then we have made a 6': 3': 6' foot grave. Once we grabbed hold of Tate's body we dropped it into the makeshift grave and then started burring him. Once we finished with that the sun was just peeking out from the horizon.

          "Did you know that it was me when you kissed me earlier?" I asked him after we got inside again. He put my bloody sheets in the dryer to finish up so we can put them back onto my bed.

          "To be totally honest I did but I wanted to think you were Zoe. I mean I love her but she brought me back from the dead. She took me to my psycho mother that ultimately led to her death. She would always keep me close to her from Madison and everyone, like I was hers. And sometimes it really pissed me off. I wanted to have a life since you did bring be back to life can I at least live a little so then it was worth it that you brought me back from the dead!" he said ranting just a little bit. It took me back. He wanted to kiss me. Kyle Spencer wanted to kiss me Violet Harmon. After we got back into my room I closed the door and then walked up to him.

          His back was facing away from me, so once I got over there I tapped his shoulder. After he turned around I did something that I was both proud and ashamed about. I kissed him. The kiss was sweet and sober. Nothing influencing it besides the love that I had for him, and the guilt of doing this to Zoe, my best friend. It ended rather suddenly when we heard a door slam and a gasp.  

Notes:

Thank you guys for all the reads and votes. I know that this is the first real update since November but I have been going through a really hard time the past 5 and a half months. I lost my love for writing this story but after a while I got many comments and messages and I had to leave you guys with something more. I don't want to become a dead beat author that leaves you with a cliffhanger and doesn't end a story properly. I have got a new idea for this story and this won't end soon. I will try my best to update more frequently but I am finishing up middle school and i am up to my head with state wide tests and finals. I have some days where I can update and I will try my best to update on those days.

Thanks for the love and the love for the story. Stay happy not crappy and I love you all

Nikki