opposites attract

sexual attraction

i slowly start to wake up feeling the warmth of the sun on my face. my eyes open and i immediately recognize that i'm not in my room. i sit up confused trying to remember last night.

elijah walked in on cue and as soon as i caught his eye he smiled. "good morning." he stood directly in front of his bed. i see he has a shirt on now. "good morning. i thought i told you to wake me up." i looked down seeing a blanket over me.

"i know but you were peacefully sleeping. why would i ruin that?"

me? peacefully sleeping? funny.

i guess i did end up falling asleep. i don't even remember being tired or closing my eyes. i look around his room. and i actually feel pretty well-rested...

"thanks." i move the blanket off me and get up. "no problem." i feel his eyes on me as i collect my things. i walk up to him and involuntarily smile remembering we kissed last night. multiple times. as if he knew what i was thinking, he smiled at me too.

"i should go." i say taking in the sight of him in the morning. his hair was messy but he still looked so good. he just wakes up like that? no fair.

"okay, i'll walk you." he slips on some house slippers while i put on my slides. he opens his door and i start to walk out. "you don't have to-" i pause when i see the rest of the newbies in the kitchen. they all stop eating to stare at me. oh my god.

stunned and not expecting to be seen, i stand there like i've been caught. they all look at each other and smile. oh my god!

with elijah standing right behind me i knew exactly how this looks.

"good morning." i wave at them getting waves back. "good morning ameena." sam says teases playfully. i shake my head at her and wonder who else elijah talks to about me. "you don't have to walk me, it's okay." i turn to elijah to see him smiling big. "okay and hey, come to our show tomorrow night. it'll be fun." he invites once more and i realize i never gave him an answer.

tomorrow's saturday?

"i'll be there." i sigh feeling confused and a bit stunned at the start of this morning. i say goodbye to him and his friends before leaving his place.

after closing his door i breathe in the beachy air and shake my head. i laugh to myself in disbelief of last nights events and make my way over to my own house.

oh delilah's going to freak out when i tell her.

i open the door and walk in on her doing yoga in the living room. "my bad," i walk fully inside and lock the door already longing for my cat. "midnight." i sing.

"i didn't know you were already gone." d comes out of her warrior pose to look at me. "yeah, i was...at the newbies house." i bite my lip trying not to give away my excitement.

"the newbies?" delilah rolls her mat up and puts it aside. i nod, she squints at me and i can already see her brain putting two and two together.

she dramatically gasps. "were you with elijah?"

my smile gave the answer away. "oh my god come here!" d sits on the couch and pats the area next to her. i rush to said area and we hold hands like we always do when we have something exciting to tell each other.

"eli and i made out last night." i confess finally matching my best friends energy for once.

she squeezes my hand as her jaw drops open. "oh my god ameena, this is so exciting! tell me more. how did this happen?" she looks at me eager for more details.

"i don't know...i was pacing in my room, my window was open, he saw me and texted me. we texted back and forth, he invited me over, i went over...he's shirtless the whole time by the way. he lets me in, we're in his room then we're both sitting next to each other on his bed and the next thing i know we're making out."

delilah mouth drops wide open once again. i can't help but laugh at her endless facial expressions as i speak. "oh wow...i'm speechless...who initiated the kiss? was it good? is he a good kisser?" she asks.

"i think we both initiated it and delilah," i squeeze her hand now. "it was amazing. i haven't been kissed like that in so long. he's such a good kisser."

she squeals in excitement and claps her hands. "oh my god, i love this for you meena."

i start to get embarrassed and shy. i haven't felt this smitten over someone in a while.

i think about our kiss and how electrifying it was. we had just met but the chemistry between us was undeniable. i feel my face get hot when i remember the way his hands felt on the sides of my face, pulling me into him. and the way it felt to run my fingers through his hair.

i stand up suddenly and take a few steps towards the kitchen. i feel like i'm out of breath. "what is this feeling?" i ask my friend while i pace around the living room trying to catch my breath. "sexual attraction." she answers bluntly.

i nod. sexual attraction...

"i don't think i've ever felt this way about someone...not even with my ex's," i bite my nail. "i don't know if i like this feeling...i feel hot and sweaty and nervous and scared and turned on." i blabber on and on fixated on my nail.

delilah gets up and moves my hand preventing me from my anxious habit. "meena, you have a crush on elijah and you're sexually attracted to him. thats all! and you're scared because these are all new feelings...and if not new, these are feelings you haven't felt in a long time, that's big and exciting!"

i nod as she reassures me. "wow i'm so inexperienced when it comes to these things." i frown calming down. "that's okay. we all had to start somewhere," she shrugs. "take it easy. go with the flow and stay out of your head. i'm sure eli is in his room kicking his feet up in the air." we both laugh.

i hug d feeling very grateful for her. "oh what would i do without you? my calm and rational best friend." she hugs me back immediately. i love delilahs hugs. "you think i'm rational?" she asks letting go.

"most of the time." i take a deep breath in and let it out. "hmm." she walks to the kitchen. i follow.

now that my nervous system was in check, i felt more relaxed and at ease.

"did sam tell you about their show tomorrow night?" i ask sitting in one of the dining room chairs. "she did, are you excited? excited to see loverboy rock out?" she teases, i shake my head dismissing her. "i'm nervous, as always... and i don't know what to wear. i don't have anything that screams rockstar." i watch delilah rummage through our fridge and cabinets.

"we'll worry about that tomorrow. but for now, what's for breakfast?"