It's the Things We Love the Most, That Destroy Us

Chapter 2: Finnick Odair

Peeta Pov

I run out of command. Not knowing where I'm going, but I couldn't care less. I would have took it better if Katniss just said she didn't love me back. But for her to fake her love for me? It was all just another piece in Snow's games. The games where nothing good will come out, even from the people who win. No, not win, but survive. There are no winners. 

I run through the narrow halls of district thirteen, tears threatening to spill from my eyes. But I can't cry in front of all these people. I just can't. I keep running until I reach a dead end. I quickly turn back and run all the way down tons of stairs, and once I reach the bottom, I can't hold back tears anymore. I sink to my knees and start to cry. 

I realize there was a plan going on. Between Katniss and Haymitch. One I wasn't part of. And I can see why now. They were just using me. In order to defy the capitol. I really don't care that there is a district 13, or that I survived the games. I should be dead anyway. I wish Katniss just let me die from blood poisoning. I wish I ran into the bloodbath, to be killed, so I would not have to go through all of this pain that Katniss has caused me. I wish I had just let Cato kill me when I decided to let the river carry me away from him after he cut my leg. Because after all, I am all that my mother said I was. Worthless, A mistake, someone that shouldn't be alive. I am just a stupid boy with a stupid crush on a girl who doesn't even care for me.

All I want to do is throw some things, but when I can't find anything, I just decide to throw my head at the concrete wall, still crying, and I keep bashing my for head as hard as I can until I start to feel dizzy. I now know how Haymitch feels. When he's depressed. In need for someone. But I have it more lucky, as I do have family, with a mother that hates me, and I've got Thresh, and Clove. They seem to always be by my side. But I don't need anyone. And I don't want anyone.

I quickly wipe away my tears because I hear footsteps. It turns out it's just Thresh, Clove and that guy with golden hair and see green eyes from earlier. "Peeta, you okay?" Clove asks. I guess she doesn't hate me then. "Does any part of me look okay right now?" I say, chuckling a bit. "No." Thresh says. "Meet us upstairs." Clove says. "Supper."  Her and Thresh walk up the stairs but the guy with the golden hair stays.

"You're not going are you?" he asks. "Nope," I reply. He chuckles while smirking.

"I'm Finnick by the way. Finnick Odair"

"Peeta Mellark." I say

"I'm sorry about Katniss. I know how devastating it must be to have the person you love lie to you about loving you back." he says. This guy sure understands me. He makes me want to go join everyone for dinner which is exactly what we do.

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Sorry it was short. I got exams tomorrow.