Feeling made out of dust || UndertaleAU || TwistedLoveTale ENG

Truth is painfull...

& 16.07.2024

One week later...

POV SANS

I spent one week in ruins treating this little megalomaniac. It wasn't the best time in my life but still taking care of someone for a few days it's better than a never-ending nightmare called genocide. I don't even dare to complain.

The outburst on the day she was attacked by Flowey made Chara quieter and uncalm. It seems like it's some psychic problem she is dealing with, again I don't know all about her... Flowey didn't show himself anymore since the last time. Lucky for me I don't know what would happen if we were to fight again. Recently something strange has been happening with my soul. I have started feeling pain whenever I use my magic, I know I haven't been pushing my limits and that alone makes it even more concerning. I have decided not to share that with Chara for now.

Throughout all seven days, Chara's headache was getting weaker till it disappeared yesterday, so that's good. The issue on the other hand was with food, with preparing it exactly. Thank god Toriel had huge supplies of food as well as the fact that Chara seems to eat pretty much everything.

I'm so ashamed of the number of dishes I messed up. I didn't think that humans need to eat so much. Well, nothing strange after all I am a monster. I don't require a huge amount of food I just need to eat something from time to time to keep my magic levels at a constant level. Humans on the other hand to survive need to eat something at least two times a day. If they were not to eat their body would become weaker and weaker till it becomes too weak to move and over time they die. At least that's what Chara taught me. Better if it's true because if not I swear she will pay for all this food wasted... Aghh whatever. Chara is finally able to move and fight smoothly, one good piece of news.

I'm currently sitting in a room with Chara, checking if we took everything we needed before we leave.

- Hey Chara I got a question for ya. - I asked. - Do we have any plan?

- Nope who needs it anyway. - She replied.

- ...okay... so about teleportation. The thing is I don't know how things look in Snowdin, if we were to teleport there is a chance that we bump into royal guards right away. - I said.

- Is that a problem? - She put on her psycho smile. - After all, we can kill them, that's why I reset in the first place. - She said excitedly.

- Back to your old self I see... - I mumbled under my nose.

As much as I hate to agree with that logic I couldn't disagree with her. I'm a murderer whether I want it or not. Those are facts. Chara lost control over the timeline which is partially my fault. After all, she reset for me. I wanted to shout at her that I won't kill anyone anymore but I just stayed silent like a coward. There are chances that she will get control back later but... I have a feeling it might mean more murders... better not to think about it for now.

- So maybe you show me the exit from the ruins?

- My pleasure partner. - She rolled her eyes and started to walk out of the room. I was walking right behind her.

We are getting down the stairs. At the end of the stairs, we were greeted by a very long tunnel. We start to walk through it. The atmosphere here filled me with uneasy feelings. At the end, I saw huge doors which I assumed led to Snowdin forest. That must be the place where Toriel was sitting when we were exchanging jokes. This view started to take a toll on me...

Right now I'm with a murderer who killed the whole population of Underground right before my own eyes multiple times. She may even make me kill others, and a cherry on top is that I might not get a choice in that matter... All the negative emotions I could feel them smashing down my psyche to pieces. What was terrifying was the fact that in all those emotions there was one I wouldn't expect...

Excitement of what was about to come.

We left ruins. Nervously I looked around to see if anyone was there. Luckily there was no one to be seen. I sighed with relief which seemed to trigger something in Chara. Seeing that she came closer to me and got right in my face. She pushed her finger right onto my chest.

- What the hell is wrong with you!? We are in this mess together even if you don't like it! Do you think that because it's a new timeline I will stop killing!? Sans, you killed yourself! There is blood on your hands and you can't do anything about it! Accept the reality! As fucked as this situation is you HAVE to keep going! - She shouted.

- ... - I couldn't answer that, I was caught in her twisted speech.

- You know once I was just like you. I wanted to save everyone, I wouldn't even think about hurting them but it all changed when I got bored. All the smiles that you see for the hundreth time are only tiring. They start to play with your mind. When I killed for the first time I felt... so... Refreshed. With each victim, this feeling was getting more addicting. Sans, you can't fool me, you don't want to go back. You don't truly want me to reset, that's why you killed Snowdrake!

SO LET'S KILL THEM ALL TOGETHER AND CHANGE OUR FATES FOR GOOD! - Chara screamed with pride. The way she put all of this made me feel like I was about to melt. Everything she said even if it was disgusting, brutal, and most importantly immoral sadly was the truth. I don't want to go back into the loop, I... I... I'm a murderer!

I turned around and a small tear rolled down my cheekbone. I just wanted to perish, be turned into dust just like all those genocides. I didn't want to be alive. I was sick with myself. I came closer to the first nearby tree and punched it as hard as I could. I screamed out all these emotions I wasn't able to hold in anymore.

"Hello? Is anyone there?" - Some monster screamed from afar...