Salvo ~ Avengers Soulmate au

28.

I know my updates are not very frequent but by popular request I'm back with Letters PART TWO <33

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Hey Captain Lanuage,

^Sorry I had to.

^^this was totally Tony and Nat's fault by the way.

I know you know why I have to do this. I know you understand. You're the leader, you've always been- and you know this is what's best for the team.

You're so strong Steve. You are the Captain these bunch of misfits have always needed.
(^Although Tony's ego would never admit that and Thor has pride the size of Everest.)

You are the one with the calmest facade I have ever seen. You can hide your feelings well, almost too well.

I know you have ptsd and constant nightmares. I know that the others don't know this yet. Tell them. You might be the leader and I know you feel responsible for everyone but asking for help is the kind of strength not many possess. They're your soulmates. They will never judge you. Ever.

I'm sorry I can't be there for you Steve. I won't be for a long time.

You said you didn't know if you could trust me. I get that and I definitely don't blame you. I promise to turn myself into someone you can begin to trust. I'll work on it. I promise Steve. I will.

^I hope you give me another chance because I need you. All of you.

You are the ones I never knew I needed but now that I have a taste, I'm addicted. Trust me when I say that what I'm doing is probably one of the hardest things I've ever done- and considering considering I went through, that's saying something.

I hope you'll wait for me. I hope you will accept me for I promise that we'll meet again.

Until then, I will miss you.

Rhea

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Hey Thor,

I can already feel myself missing your voice call out 'Lady Aphrodite' from the other side of the room. I can hear Clint complaining that his already sensitive ears hurt. I can hear you two start a banter which will end up you both making out and me blushing bright red as if you guys haven't already dirty talked me into oblivion.

^like I told Pietro, writing does give me confidence apparently.

I am sorry Thor. I'm sorry for the missed poptart dates and not being by your side even though I promised.

I'm trying to be better. I'm trying to do good. I'm trying to be the person you deserve. Whom you will proudly be able to call your soulmate. I'm trying.

Maybe it will take a little time. Maybe a little patience. But you will be safe and that's all that matters to me. I never knew how to care- I didn't know I could feel that warm feeling I get in my chest everytime you smile at me. You all showed me things I never thought possible.