always, a j2 fic

two

"..and that was my senior prom." I said finally.

"You've got to be kidding.." Jensen said shaking his head and looking down at me.

I was sat on the ground with a beer leaning against the couch next to Jen's feet while he sat on the couch with a glass of wine.

We were together in my trailer with the credits of some movie playing in the background. It was going on 11 p.m. We both hadn't showered or left the trailer at all since shooting.

Gosh we're gonna get chewed out in the morning. Honestly I didn't care. I was with my best friend...though he was more than that. And he's all I've got in this place...country even. All family is back in Texas.

And it's not like I have a girlfriend to go home to. Last time I did that, I was walked all over.

Jensen is legitimately all I have. He probably thinks I'm clingy, or annoying, but I enjoy his company. He's a sweet guy, and he's grown to be my best friend.

Yeah, I know dating is hard with this job but it's not fucking impossible. And sure I can make a call and have cheap sex but I'd rather not.

I looked up at Jen. He looked good for 'it's eleven at night and I did intense shooting today, haven't showered or done anything for hygiene and there's popcorn grease on my lip'. He caught my glance.

"What.?" He asked grinning. I smiled.

"Nothing...you look good." I said biting my tongue towards the end. He scoffed and rolled his eyes.

"Okay googly eyes, you've had some to drink then." He said getting up and playfully hitting the back of my head.

"I gotta spring a leak. Don't do anything fun without me." He winked before disappearing in the back. I chuckled and looked down at the bottle in my lap before taking a drink.

I thought about just totally mauling Jensen. Coming onto him and not holding back. He'd probably just push me away. Or flip shit and storm out of the trailer. There's only been one particularly "intimate" moment between us. It was just the other day too.

We were at some club that Lauren dragged us to and said it'd be "fun". Jen and I had some drinks then he dragged me into the crowd. It was packed but we could move a bit.
To paint a better picture for you any personal space that existed before vanished. It was loud and kinda dark I could only see Jen's face vividly in flashes. I was tipsy and wobbling around having a good time, he was laughing at my weird dance moves. It was the most fun I'd had in a long while.

Then some jackass pushing through the crowd shoved me making me fall forward and onto Jensen. Surprisingly he caught me in those strong arms of his. I looked up and Jensen's face was practically right on mine. My nose was bumping his and I couldn't keep my eyes off his lips. He just stood there breathing heavily, holding onto me.

But it wasn't like in movies or anything where time stops and it's just the two of us. Time was well going and the club was buzzing around us, but I couldn't see past Jen's face. I just heard everything around me.

I leaned in a little lingering at the thought of just taking his lips on mine. My bottom lip brushed his top and almost instantly he pressed himself on me taking my lip in between his. I froze for a moment before kissing him back.

I had fooled around with a guy back in high school but I was pretty rusty. Jensen seemed like he knew what he was doing but was kinda sloppy. Maybe I was just over analyzing things, it was just a kiss.

He tasted like Jack Daniels, Polar Ice Extra gum, and Newport cigarettes he smokes when he's had a lot to drink.

I pulled away and looked up at him. He just glared at me. I don't believe in all that smutty erotica stuff but I swear there was lust or something in his eyes. I looked around us and no one seemed to be staring. I reached up a hand and rubbed his neck, but he just grabbed at my hand and went back to dancing.

The next day he told me to 'forget about that thing last night' when honestly that was all I could think about.

He knew I wouldn't forget it but I found a way to let go of it. He knows I like him in sorts though. I know he likes me too he just fights it...but hey I get to work with him and that's cool I guess.

(THANKS FOR READING OMG, toss this fic in your library so you can know when there's more, comments are appreciated, xx Lizi)