always, a j2 fic

six

"Jared don't do this, where are you?"

Jensen's voice echoed through the phone. I'm sure he's kinda concerned, but he doesn't love me. That kiss was a stupid drunk thing and I thought it meant something but I guess not.. This could just be my anxiety right now but I just don't care.. My eyes got teary causing me to sniffle.

"I don't know exactly where I'm at but I don't care and I'm not sure you do either right now so I'm gonna go do stupid harmful stuff."

I ended the call and wiped my eyes. I think I'm somewhere in west Vancouver, though I live in north.. I don't know.

I walked back inside the crummy bar I was outside of and ordered another beer.

'Jared where are you...'

Jen's voice echoed through my head. I downed another swig of beer.

'Jare.. Don't do this'

I squeezed the neck of my beer so hard it shattered in my hand. The bar tender gasped and people around me looked over.

There was glass in my hand and I clutched my wrist.

"Fuck.." Blood started dripping and the gal handed me a towel.

"I'll call someone!" she said walking away.

"No!"

Shit. She was gone.

I went to the bathroom and ran my hand under warm water, well as warm as I could get it in this place. I picked out some of the glass and wrapped the towel around my hand. I had to get out of here.

I jetted out of the door and started running.
I ran and I didn't stop until my ankles were pulsing.

I don't know where I am and I don't know how I got here but I wanna be at home I wanna be with Jensen I want to be wrapped up in his arms. I want him to want me back.

My eyes teared up and I slouched on a bench near by. My phone buzzed and it was Jensen calling, I ignored it and dropped my phone next to me.

My hand was still throbbing, I moved the towel and looked to see a pool of blood in the palm of my hand. The thing is I didn't freak out..seeing the blood didn't scare me..even though it was my own blood.

I started to see black spots and felt extremely lightheaded.

A car turned the corner and all I remember is seeing a bright light. Headlights.

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