Kai Satou x Amy Cement (One-Shots)

Emo Kai

TW- mentions of neglectful abuse. inferior thoughts (general depression). Mentions of smoking cigarettes.

(Btw kai ily and this is nothing like how you act, I just thought it would be funny to write like this <33)

Kai Satou was raised in a large house with his father and brother where he got no affection at all. He learned to resent his father who was the worst of them all. His brother Ranger constantly annoyed him, and showed little to no brotherly love. The love he received from his brother was quickly retrieved with "haha, jk. L + Ratio, bozo!"

Kai tried his best to keep an open mind. Maybe his brother just didn't know how to show he loved him, and so he tried to defend his "coolness" by adding an insult to the end. Even though Kai knew this, what his brother said still hurt him.

As for his father... Kai knew Gashu felt no affection for him whatsoever. At school, Gashu never showed up for Kai's choir concerts. He would constantly flake on plans to drive Kai to a friend's house, and Gashu would always miss the sport games. That was only the beginning- there is a lot more to Kai's father that I could explain but I will not be.

So how did Kai cope? His family environment hardly felt like home, but neither did anywhere else. So Kai put up a wall, no one in and no one out. He never made plans. His "Friends" barely knew anything about him. They were just there to... well... make Kai feel better about himself. He was able to make some friends, so he isn't a total buffoon. This didn't help Kai's loneliness, however. With his wall up, he felt nobody could understand him. He projected his anger at his family to everyone around him, and it was starting to become a problem.

Kai knew it was a problem, and he wanted to fix it. But he didn't know how. He had tried telling his father how terrible he treats him, but he only got punished. Ranger was practically in another world, and getting support from him would be insane. His school friends, if you could even call them that, were mean and would be unwilling to help. Kai was trapped.

Kai's POV:

I laid on my bed with my earbuds in, listening to my favorite song. I listened to it every day, and it makes me feel better because I relate to it so much. At first I'm only humming the tune, but the chorus comes on and I can't help but sing along.

"I'm a creep... I'm a weirdo. What the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here..."

And the song was right. With my family being the way it is, this isn't my home.

"I want a perfect body... I want a perfect soul."

I feel guilty for having such an attitude with everyone... but I can't stop myself. I don't know how to regulate my emotions correctly.

"I wish I was special..."

"I WISH YOU WOULD SHUT THE HELL UP." My brother interrupted. I turned Creep by Radiohead on louder in my earbuds to drown all of the noise out. A single tear streamed down my face, sticking some of the hair from my side part to my face.

I curled up into a ball and hugged my crying- I mean frying pan close. Her name was Freeda and she was the only one who truly could understand me. I fell asleep next to her.

I woke up the next morning and quietly got dressed for school. The whole day was a blur and I can hardly recall any of it. I got home and got changed into my work clothes. It was just black pants, black shirt, and a blue Walmart apron. I chose to work at Walmart because it was pretty far from my house, and I'd like to spend as much time as I can away from my house as possible.

I hop into my car (that I bought myself) and turn on Mask by Dream. I subconsciously go to sweep my side part more in front of my eyes, but Walmart dress code says I can't have a side part. Something about "compromising the customers comfort" or something.