The life of Alex

[The beginning of a difficult time]

{2 weeks ago}

As always, the alarm clock rang promptly at 5:45 in the morning. I got up and went tired to the bathroom, where I freshened up. I went to the kitchen to make myself a sandwich with cheese. When I finally finished, I went back to my room and ate it.
After I ate, I put on a pair of black jeans, which I always wear, and a sweater of some kind. I quickly got my school things together and went to school. I usually go to school with Noah, my best friend. I've known him since kindergarten. But at this time of the year, in winter, he is always driven to school. So I went alone.

When I arrived at the school, I stand at the pillars where we meet every morning to go to the classroom together. First came Noah, he always comes before Olivia. When Olivia finally got there, we went inside. Olivia and I still had to get the class register first, then we went to the classroom.

7:45 am the school bell rang, the lessons began and everyday school life took its course. Like every day.
For the next 2 weeks I couldn't shake the feeling that something had changed in my group of friends. I mean how they behaved towards me. They talked less to me, they laughed less when I was there and in the groupworks I always had the feeling that they only worked with me because they had to, not because they wanted to. I just couldn't shake the feeling of this rejection.

{2 weeks later}

At first I thought I was imagining it all, but when I got to school late on Tuesday because I had a doctor's appointment, I realized that I wasn't wrong.

I entered the classroom where everyone was working. Since we had a substitute because our art teacher wasn't there, I went to our substitute teacher and told him that I was at the doctor's. He tells me to just sit down with Olivia, Amelia and Bea. So I sat down with the three. There was no response, not even a "Hi". They didn't even look at me!? I realized something was wrong. I knew I must have been doing something wrong in the last few weeks or months. I've ended up wondering what I did wrong all day.

I tried to integrate myself during the two short breaks, but everyone ignored me. So I decided to go to Fay and Zendaya during the lunch break, which lasts a total of an hour. They both don't ignore me. When it finally rang for lunch, I went with Fay and Zendaya to a room where you could borrow games. We decided to play Uno. The hour passed pretty quickly. Since the doorbell rang again, we went to the classroom and just waited for the last two hours to finally pass. I kept asking myself what did I do that my friends just dumped me like this? In the last lesson, of course, it had to happen that the teacher decided to do a groupwork.Normally she always lets the students decide the groups themselves, but not today. She said the groups out loud in front of the whole class, "Amelia and Bea are a group, Alex and Olivia", the moment the teacher said that, Olivia just shook her head with a grin. Like the motto, never in my life will I do some groupwork with her. The other girl who is also sitting at our group table, Lisa, she grins at me the same way Olivia grins at Lisa.

At that moment I just felt terrible. I got warm, I sweated, I just wanted to sink into the ground because it was so uncomfortable for me. The teacher noticed that we had a problem with the division of our group. She came to us and asked what was going on. Lisa told her that there was stress between Oliva and me. I didn't know anything about that, I thought that they were ignoring me because they didn't want me around them and wanted to be left alone. I didn't understand why it was suddenly a fight? So that there were no further problems, the teacher decided to put me in the group of Bea and Amelia. Which had to be okay with everyone since there were no other options. I still didn't feel good at all. But what else should I do than just let that happen to me?I was just waiting for the last hour to be over and I could go home. It wasn't long before the doorbell finally rang! I packed my backpack as quickly as possible and went out as soon as possible. Then I went home with Zendaya and Noah. I got home and I just felt terrible. Because I couldn't help it, I texted Olivia and asked her, 'What did I do that made everyone ignore me?" The rest of the day I cried in bed because I didn't know what to do. All of this drove me crazy! So all I could do was wait for Olivia to text me what I did. I was exhausted from waiting for hours. While waiting for an answer, I decided not to go to school the next day, because I couldn't look anyone in the eye. It was just too uncomfortable for me, I couldn't help it!