Death and Life

Am I really dead or not?

Mun yeong's pov

"They won't worry about me" I said "They never care for me. I am just a burden on them that they want to marry me off." I...My heart always aches thinking about it even though I act all tough but isn't it obvious that I am also a human and I also get sad. But who cares everybody is selfish. They only use me until they can, and then leave me like I never meant anything. They are my parents and I used to thought that they will only think about my good but NO. 

 My thoughts were interrupted by Rose saying "How can you say that maybe they don't show their love but every parent loves their children a lot."

"No mine don't." I said firmly 

"I realized this when it was my birthday, my 7th birthday. I was happy and all exited. But that was my worst birthday. That day I was expecting a grand party because my mom told me the other day that she will plan it herself. But unfortunately that day my parents lost a contract. 

SO, my dad canceled everything and beaten me badly. Even claimed me as their bad luck charm. They locked me in the basement for two days. It was all dark and.... I was thirsty as well as hungry but they didn't give a fuck about it." I explained while one tear somehow escaped from my eye although I really didn't wanted it to. But I still had a poker face. I don't want to be seen as a weak girl.

 James suddenly spoke "Hmm now I understood why she is our queen. Although she is a human. But the things she has gone through made her dead inside. See being dead inside doesn't mean loosing all your emotions, it means ......" he paused maybe to find correct words to explain it

 "Each time you go through something really sad it breaks a small piece of your soul. So, basically all the humans are a little dead inside but that doesn't matter much. It matters when someone goes through so much sadness that it completely shatter your soul into pieces. And that's what exactly have happened to her. " He explained 

All the people were silent and listening to him. Rose came forward and hugged me tightly. "A hug always help with sadness." she whispered in my ear.

"No, I am not sad" I replied to her and then she broke the hug and gave me a really warm smile. I smiled back at her. 

"Okay then, if you want we can cut all your connections from the human world." Ash said 

"But how? if she suddenly leaves everything there, people will surely suspect there is something fishy going on with her and our identities must be kept a secret "

"Why you guys are taking so much stress for me. I have a plan and we follow that. No one will ever suspect anything and I will be able to live here properly." I said smirking

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I hope you liked this chapter. I wrote it in hurry .So, there can be a lot of mistakes. Please ignore them. Feel free to comment.

Phoenix