The LGBTQIA2+ gang (old)

Meet Mason Lowell

*After a debate with myself I decided that our character Mason here, will be the only character to be formally introduced with two sexualities. The reason for that is that yes, I misunderstood the meaning of his two sexualities. Even I happen to do that even if I fully support LGBTQIA2+ people and want to understand them and get to know everything there is to every gender identity or sexuality. The cover of the part as you can see is the polysexual flag because that's what he was only supposed to be originally. So I decided to stick to that but down here you'll see both of his sexualities flags. Ok here are his flags.

Oh and before you guys get confused the first flag is the polysexual one and the second one represents polyamory. I know that's not the real flag for polyamory but I came upon that flag for that sexuality and I preferred that one cause personally I think it reflects better polyamory. Ok now you finally may enjoy!*

I f**ked up big time. Starring right back at me is my now well maybe ex boyfriend William. I really f**ked up. You see me and William were eating ice cream together and enjoying each other's company. Then yes..my now well she's still my girlfriend came around and decided to kiss me in front of him. The both of them didn't know I was dating both of them. I know this sounds f**ked up but trust me I didn't to times them for fun, it goes way deeper than that. The problem is that I can't even begin to explain to the both of them especially William cause he knows now why I two times them. I really don't know what to do. I'm scared really...I'm scared that I just lost William..Ugh why didn't I think that this could happen. I'll have to explain to Grace what's going on, cause I know she's probably mad that I pushed her like that. My relationship with her is already strained because of a fight we had yesterday so..I'm scared to tell her too.. Ugh how do I make him stay? He keeps crying silently. I know he wants me to go away but I won't. I know it's unfair to ask for him to stay in this even after what I did but..I don't want to lose him... wait, wait I haven't introduced myself yet. I'm Mason Lowell, yeah otherwise known as a jock, this is not the time but I kinda like diving for no reason so yeah that's it. Now I'm probably known as the guy that two timed a Demi girl and Demi boy. You see this is really hard for me. At first I instantly fell in love with Grace a few months ago. Normal right? I didn't want to freak her out so I hid my feelings for her. I had no idea if my feeling were mutual. So I hid them. But there was a problem I met William on the same day same place. At the school's Christmas show. I also felt something for William. At first I was really confused about that. I didn't really understood why my heart was beating at just the mention of both of them. I wanted to kiss the both of them, I wanted to get to know the both of them, get into the smallest romantic possible. I knew I somehow wanted them? Was that possible? At first I was tempted to lean more on my feelings for William. Sure I was scared that I was gay but then just seeing him smile, being all cute was just to much. I knew I liked him. So I came to the conclusion I was gay. I mean I liked girls before but it was never like that. Then like a coward I did quizzes about my sexuality. At first they said I was bisexual. Hm at first I was okay with that knowing what it is what then I realized that there was still something missing. By then I accidentally one day decided to kiss William. I was real happy to know he liked me back. I don't know what came over me that time but I'm glad I did cause I know I'm dating him and my feelings have only grown for him. I love every moment shared with him. I could stare at him all day long and never stop. He's so beautiful and cute but he doesn't know it. Not gonna lie his feminine side attracted me. So when he told me he was a Demi boy I didn't really understood at first but only find it quite fitting. It was already the end of January when we stared dating. I was already becoming friends with Grace. I don't know why but I never wanted William to know I was friends with her. I just, I don't know, I didn't want him to have assumptions? Eh it's probably it. We always have been dating in secret cause trust me I'm not ready to come out to my goddamn school that is homophobic. The guys are gonna hate me, worst Joshua will annoy me to no end with that. He definitely is a sick a** homophobic like everyone is. Grace told me a few weeks later that she was a Demi girl. At first I was surprised cause I never thought I would meet that much LGBTQIA2+ people in my school. Yeah I haven't seen a whole lot of that in my school. Obviously I totally support her too. I mean why should I keep degrading her as a girl? Yeah sometimes I slip up cause no matter she looks like her girl even if she doesn't want to admit it. So while all that happened my feelings continued to grow for William but for Grace too. At first I was confused yet again. Like I didn't know who I loved. For me it was impossible to like two people at the same time, at the same degree. It was worrying to know that was happening to me. Then a few weeks ago Grace confessed to me she was in love with me. At first I was speechless but I really didn't want to act before thinking so I told her I thought about it. I knew I felt guilty for feeling what I felt but in the end I both loved them so much that I just couldn't help but accept to be in a relationship with Grace too. Yea I've could've told them but like a coward I didn't. I really liked how it was even if sometimes i felt a little guilty. No matter what they wouldn't understood what I was feeling. Like a coward I decided to date the both of them cause I love of the both of them okay? I really like being intimate with the both of them. Oh and please not in the way of sex. Yeah I'm a virgin and so are they but that's not the reason. Yeah I have a weird kink..that I want to have it with the both of them at the same time. It's wrong right? To think that way right? I really badly want to make myself believe that it it wrong but there's a part of me that can't help but feel like this right. A few months ago I really wished that those feelings would go away on their way but only for them to grow more intense. Now I don't know what to do..Grace won't want to talk to me ever again and William... "I know you don't want to see me right now..but can I please explain myself?" He looks at me with such a broken look. It feels like needles are stabbing me right now. Just seeing him hurt because of me feels like I shouldn't even exist right now. I want to break the f**k out of me. I don't deserve to het them to forgive me after what I've done..but I just..I desperately don't want to lose them. I know I like the both of them equally but I think I might lean more on William cause he's a lot more willing to forgive me. Grace on the other hand will kill me if I told her everything. Huh..Joshua was right after all. I'm just a few days everything broke down. "Mason.." I can see that he's mentally debating himself to decide if he should let me in or not. "I" He hugs me and continue to cry on my shoulder. I feel like I shouldn't be here comforting him. He doesn't deserve a guy that two times him. "Mason..why..ah it hurts." "I'm sorry I really am.." "..." Just hearing it from him doesn't help the situation right now. It only makes it more painful. I really can't believe I hurt him.. "You know what..no you don't deserve an explanation right now. Take all the space away from me you need and come back if you need me." I can see that only makes him even more sad. "Listen hurt me all you want. Hit me, punch me, I don't know but I just cannot let you being sad knowing it's...my fault.." He losses his grip on my shoulder and looks back at me with eyes red and puffy from crying so much. "Mason..I..I'm not mad at you..." "Oh..ok" "I just it hurts right now..but I just." Without any reason he kisses me. At first I hold back but get into the kiss. He really surprised me. Why is he kissing me..if, with whatever happened between us? "I just..Mason I..I love you too much that I just can't let go of you.." Oh that's... my heart starts beating faster and I become speechless. "Mason..do you love her..?" Oh no...I don't what to answer to that. I can't hurst him more than what I already have done. "I..how about we discuss this..tomorrow? I don't want to hurt you more than I already have. You may be strong but I just don't want to hurts you again. You don't deserve anymore..wait it's unfair but do you even still want to be together..?" He nods "Wow, William sometimes I ask myself why you always forgive everyone that easily, anyways I won't treat you like that ever again. I..I'll try to trust you more.." Yea it sounds like excuses but it really is the truth even if I don't like it. He looks back at me. "Ok..tell me what made you do such a thing!" That's..oh no he's mad right? "The only think I want you to know is that...yes I am dating that girl. Her name is Grace.. it breaks my heart but I have to break up with her for the sake of our relationship. You..you'll understand what I mean tomorrow.." At first it kinda hurt him but he nod in understanding. I hug him and leave him to go look for Grace. Hopefully she didn't leave. I walk a few minutes and then find her not far of in the streets. "Why did you push me! If you didn't want to talk you could've told me you know!" "I..Grace we really need to talk about something else.." "Like what?!" "Calm down please." "Don't tell me to calm down!!" This is already so exhausting. "Can we please sit down somewhere near first?" "Hm! Fine!" She pouts. She looks cute when she does that. No Mason focus! "Before I tell you everything I have to tell you..just know I still love you but..ugh you'll se once I explain." I end up all explaining to her. It didn't go as planned..she was heartbroken and when I told her she couldn't stand what I told her. Before I even had the chance to officially break up with her even if I still want her, she called our relationship off. She ran away from me right after claiming she'll never speak to me ever again. I huff and let out a breath I was holding in that I didn't realized. This is hard...I really wasn't expecting for this to happen..all in one day too...I really have a lot of reflection and thinking to do tonight. It feels weird right now. There's one part of me that is happy, glad, relieved that I'm still dating William bit another part of me wants to break down because I just lost someone I love. Man, why do es everything have to be so complicated?

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The next day, I come back at school after another sleepless night. I arrive at school and end up bumping on someone out of pure tiredness. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to bump into you.." "It's okay..wait you're Mason right?" "Yeah what about it?" "It's nothing you're quite popular at school so I know you." I notice just a few feet away from the girl in question another girl. Hm she seems a little shy. It's probably her friend. "I'm Abigail, and oh that's my friend Olivia." "Hey" She says shyly. Cute..oh no not again..I'm already dating William and I just broke up with Grace yesterday I can't be feeling things for someone already right? What was that thing they said on the internet again? Oh yeah they said I might be polyamorous and polysexual too..? I'm confused tho. "Earth to Mason. I was taking about the new film that came out." "Oh, sorry I zoomed out." "It's okay it's not your fault besides nobody is really interested im what I like so.." She brushes her hair with her hand. Her friend comes closer to us. "Don't mind her..she's crazy with her anime addiction and movies addiction." "Oh I see." Even if they continue talking I tend to listen more at Olivia. I don't know why but I feel strangely attracted to her. Oh s**t why am getting in the same pattern again? I still haven't told William any of this and I might be falling for someone again. Geez heart is quite confusing those days. When will my body stop being attracted to anybody he sees? Ugh this is so confusing..guess I have a lot to figure out.