Perseverance (Wangxian)

Chapter 10 - MINE

Lan Zhan and Wei Ying were headed to the burial mounds. Lan Zhan stood to the side of Little Apple holding the reigns guiding him along. Wei Ying sat upon Little Apple's back playing tunes on his Dizi, Yìlì. He played Wangxian, not even knowing the name, but it was a song that has always stuck with him since that day in Xuanwu's Cave.

He stops playing abruptly, "Lan Zhan, can we stop for a moment?" He asked.

Lan Zhan stopped walking and Wei Ying hopped down from Apple. He stood there with his flute in both hands looking at the ground. He wasn't sure he was ready to go back to the mounds. He had such horrible memories there but some were cherished. The cherished memories were of the fond moments he had with his family of innocent Wen remnants.

He remembers Madam Wen, Uncle Four, and Wen Qing. Just remembering them were bringing pain to his heart. How much had he tried to save them, only for them all to die so horribly in the end. He was in even more pain when he realized he couldn't even save his sweet little three your old radish, A'Yuan.

"Wei Ying?" Lan Zhan asked in a gentle and hushed tone.

Wei Ying looked up from the ground, and Lan Zhan could see tears forming in his eyes. Wei Ying knew what Lan Zhan was asking him, he wasn't okay. He can't be okay right now. He was going to a place where he was tortured for three months, then stayed at again for several months with a new-found family that he couldn't protect and save. He shook his head and stepped into Lan Zhan placing his head on his lover's shoulder, and sobbed.

Lan Zhan placed a hand to Wei Ying's head and another hand wrapped tightly around him in a secure hold. He was starting to understand that going to the burial mounds was going to be very hard for Wei Ying. He couldn't blame him. Lan Zhan picked up Wei Ying and went over to sit under a nearby tree for some shade, and to hopefully, properly comfort him.

"I don't know if I can do this, Lan Zhan," Wei Ying said in a whisper, "the memories, they cause too much pain for me. Not just emotional pain, but it hurts physically. I feel like there is a rope tied around my chest and it just tights more and more to the point that I can't breathe. There are moments my body feels like it's being pricked my thousands of needles, leaving a burning sensation behind. My entire body just hurts, and my heart, feels like it just tights and squeezes the more that the memories come back."

Lan Zhan didn't even realize just how bad Wei Ying's condition was. His pain isn't just emotional, it is physical, very physical. He is going through post-trauma and the pain is just too much for him. Lan Zhan realized that asking him to go back to that place was a hard ask, very hard.

"I'm sorry," Lan Zhan said to him, "I didn't realize just how much pain you were in. I am so sorry."

Wei Ying wrapped his arms around Lan Zhan's neck and held him tight, "you didn't know, it's alright. I just need a moment to settle my thoughts and I should be okay," Wei Ying reassured him.

"You shouldn't have to push yourself for the sake of all this that is happening," Lan Zhan told him, "you should be focusing on your emotional health and not the issues that are happening right now."

"I get my emotions are important, but to me right now, the issues are more important than personal my issues," Wei Ying said.

Lan Zhan shook his head. He didn't like hearing Wei Ying saying that. He cares too little about himself and cares too much about others and other issues at hand. He would, again, push his own problems, pain, and hurt, aside just to do a good deed.

Where does that get Wei Ying in the end, though? He will be in more pain. Lan Zhan feared that once this case is all solved and over with, Wei Ying will try to walk away from him. He doesn't want Wei Ying to be alone ever again. He wants Wei Ying with him, and with him only.

"Wei Ying, I feel like if you opened up to Jiang Wanyin about the core, it will open up a lot of opportunities to find the real criminal," he said to Wei Ying.

"I don't want to world to know I am weak and mediocre," Wei Ying said, "I know if I tell him, it will spread like wildfire. And his reaction, I don't want him to think he didn't achieve anything because it was my core that helped him the entire time. He will be okay after a while but seeing his reaction in the beginning, I don't want to see him freak out and have a break down. I know that is what will happen. And for him to believe it, he would need my sword. He has my core, so he should be able to unsheathe it. Others can't because Suibian doesn't recognize them as me. It would have unsheathed for you but since my core is with someone else...."

"Wanyin's desire and love is overpowering that. That is why I can't unsheathe Suibian. He doesn't see me as his other half. Even though he has your core, that affects the spiritual energy of the sword. If you had your main core, it was open for me," Lan Zhan finished speaking for Wei Ying.

"It would have proven a long time ago that I had feelings for you," Wei Ying said, "a spiritual weapon will answer to the one you love....and you haven't tried to unsheathe Suibian before I gave up my core."

"You can also ask it to be used by someone else but your current core isn't connected to Suibian. He still recognizes you as his owner but he would also see Wanyin as his own as well," Lan Zhan continued.

Wei Ying nodded and placed his face into his lover's neck. He pulled a smirk and brushed his lips agains Lan Zhan skin. He felt Lan Zhan tremble from the subtle touch of his lips to his skin. Wei Ying, still with his lips against Lan Zhan's neck, and ran his tongue across his skin. Lan Zhan let out a pleasureful sigh and arched his head to give him more access. Wei Ying bit down gently and sucked. He made out with the sensitive spot of skin on Lan Zhan's neck only to leave a mark that he was there. Saying that Wei Ying had marked Lan Zhan, as his.

"Now, everyone knows you're mine," Wei Ying said sitting up and giggled.

Lan Zhan gave him a hard glare that only made Wei Ying laugh more. Lan Zhan shoved Wei Ying down to the grass and was now above him. He too, took a bite out of Wei Ying's neck with a growl. Wei Ying moaned from the pain but gained pleasure for it. Wei Ying held a grip to Lan Zhan's shoulders, with a hand on each one. Wei Ying was in a state of bliss as Lan Zhan sucked and bit at his neck. Wei Ying bit his lip trying to stop the moans from leaving his mouth.

Noticing that Wei Ying became quiet, Lan Zhan pulled his head back only to see him biting his lips shut. Lan Zhan took his left thumb and brushed his against his lips. Wei Ying parted his mouth slightly giving Lan Zhan exactly what he wanted. He rushed his head forward and pushed his tongue past Wei Ying's lips and through his clenched teeth. Giving in, Wei Ying closed his eyes and pushed his tongue against Lan Zhan's. Lan Zhan shoved his lips tightly against Wei Ying's pushing his tongue further in. They swirled and fought in the open moist cavern of their mouths.

A moan again left Wei Ying as he was enjoying his time with his soulmate. He didn't want this moment to end. He wrapped his arms tightly around Lan Zhan to let him know he wanted this to continue for a while longer. Lan Zhan groaned in response and wrapped his arms around him, sinking into Wei Ying's body. The two laid there for a good while without parting. After all, it was a good distraction for a little while. So they went on for at lease another half hour or so of them just swallowing each other's mouths before getting back on their way to the mounds.