𝐂𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐡 𝐈𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬

insecurities

You: Luna Gomez/ Y/n L/n
Your crush: Luke Shay

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Your Pov

Today i was with my bestfriend or crush Luke. My parents and his parents are friends so were also friends.

He's my childhood bestfriend.

I liked him since were in 3rd grade. Its started with a puppy love until it turned into a 'real love'.

I was reading a book on the library with Luke when he ask me a weird question.

"Have you ever had your first kiss?"

"Uhh why'd you ask?"

"Nothing. I just wanna try it." He said.

"Oh okay"

"Wanna kiss?" He ask.

I look at him. I stare at him for a second. Is he serious i thought.

"Okay?" I said.

He started to lean in and pressed his lips onto my lips. I didn't really kiss back, i just sat there and closing my eyes.

He then pulls away and said.

"So thats how kiss feels like"

"Yeah, i guess"i said. "I gotta go" i said taking my bag.

I didn't said goodbye i just run out of the library.

When i got home i went to my room and close the door.

I touch my lips and smile.

The next day i saw Luke on the lockers. My locker is just beside his so i went there.

I opened my locker while he close his and stare at something.

I didn't care anything but im imagining how will he treat me today.

Will we kiss me again? Will he still treat me as his friend or girlfriend? Will he ask me as his girlfriend? Will we ever get mar-

My thoughts were stopped when Luke talked.

"Look at Moon... isn't she so perfect." He said looking at our classmate dreamily.

What?

So what is the kiss for? Does it mean anything to him?

"Yeah shes so pretty" i said. "I have class bye" i said and ran off.

I went to the bathroom and stare myself on the mirror.

I look so bad.

My pimples, body, skin.

Thats why Luke doesn't like me.

When you look at Moon, shes pretty, rich, smart she got almost every girl ever wanted.

Tears started to fall off my eyes. I wiped it quickly.

"I hate myself" i whispered.

After that day happened i didn't want to talk to Luke.

I starved myself and stayed in my room for days and didn't went to school. I really thought that kiss meant something.

Today i went to school and i look so disgusting.

I went to my locker and saw Luke there. He greeted me and i smile at him.

I was putting my books on my locker when Moon approached Luke and kiss him.

"Good morning baby" Luke said.

"Good morning to you too" she said. "Will you help me on my Math project later?" She ask and gave Luke a puppy eyes.

Thats when it hits me. Shes using him.

Luke is always the smart one. Hes always on tops. He use to tutor me.

Weeks past its always the same, Moon is always making Luke help her on her project but the truth is, Luke is the one making it.

How do i know that?

Luke always tells me how she loves Moon so much. And i kept telling him that shes using him but he just kept telling me that why cant i be just supportive.

Months past they're still together. I dont really feel the jealousy on me anymore.

I was in my house right now home alone cause my parents went on a business trip when someone rang the bell.

I open it and saw Luke. He jumped onto my arms crying.

"What happen?"i ask.

"Your right. Moon is using me. I should've listen to you. We broke up" he sobbed.

I let him in and comfort him.

"She doesn't deserve you" i said. He kept sobbing until he fells asleep. Thats when my feelings for him came back.

I like him again.

Days, weeks past. Luke is depressed.

Im working on my math project when someone called me.

"Hello? Whos this?" I ask.

"This is Jacob, Lukes friend. Your Luna right? He bestfriend?" Jacob ask.

"Uh yeah? Why?"

"Well Luke is drunk. I cant help him he doesnt want to listen to me."

"Okay, I'll go ther." I said and end the call.

I went to the bar and Luke outside.

"Luke, Luke. Are you okay?" I ask.

"I loved her" he said. I already know who hes talking about.

"Luke we gotta go home" i place his arms on my back so he could get up.

I drive him to his house.

I place him on the couch and took some wet towel.

"Your gonna be okay" i said.

"Am i not good enough?" He ask.

"Your cool." I said.

"Why does she have to dump me"

"There might be a reason Luke."

Time skip.

Its been 6 months Luke is now better.

I also got better. I started to build up my confidence.

I tried to look more good. I took care of myself.

I was baking when someone called.

Its Luke.

"Hey" i said happily.

"Moon and i got back together" he said.

"What?!"

"Moon and i got back together."

"Oh wow congrats" i said trying to sound happy.

I ended the call.

After everything i did.

I was the one who always comforts him. I was the one who took care of him when he got drunk and he still choose that girl.

Im so stupid. I should have forget about the feelings for him.

I always thought that were gonna be together. I always thought that you'll be my future. But i guess not every wishes and imagines happens.

Im just his bestfriend.