𝐂𝐫𝐮𝐬𝐡 𝐈𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬

just the two of us

You: Elera/ Y/n
Crush: Kalix/ C/n

⚠️ depression
Anxiety
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Ever since my parents divorced, i never really became myself anymore.

What hurts me more is no one cares whats happening to me. No ones asking me if im okay or if im fine after what happen to my parents.

Everytime i go to school i always have my earphones on, i dont want to hear my classmate's bickering about me.

I always sit on the back of the class.

When the class ends i always go to the park to get some fresh air. I always sit on the swing while clearing my head.

I really wanna vent to someone and tell them my problems so bad but i have no one, ever since i started to change my friends stopped talking to me and ignored me.

But sometimes i still have someone to talk to and that is Kalix.

We're both in the same friend group and hes the only one who still asks if im okay.

Our class ended i went home and went straight to my room.

I always do that. I took a sheet of paper and wrote all of my problems there.

Hi its me elera,

Do i deserve this? What did i do wrong? You know i always try my best its all my parents fault. I know their my parents but i dont care. I just realize that i never really have a good childhood. Sometimes i envy my sisters, their pretty,smart,polite and im just the girl whos always in the shadow waiting for someone to notice me. My father always said that im a useless piece of sht and i kind of agree with that. Ever since im a kid no one really notice me, its always my sisters. Sometimes i wanna kill myself but i dont wanna go to hell. This elera trying to end her own life. Goodbye.

I took a lighter and use it to the paper. I always do when i have no one to talk to.

Its already 10 pm.

I went outside and took my skateboard. I went to the park again.

This place is my comfort place everytime i feel sad and alone i go here.

Im sitting at the end of the slide when someone approached me.

"You okay?" They ask.

"Yeah im fine" i look at them and saw Kalix. "Oh hi, sorry didnt notice you there"

"Its fine. Do you have a problem? You know you can always tell me." He said.

Okay lemme admit this.

Kalix and i use to date. Our relationship was so good our friends even hates us cause of always being sweet.

I broke up with him after my parents divorced.

He never really left my side.

"Nothing, just...personal problems..." i said.

"Come here" he said opening his arm.

We hugged.

This is the thing that i really want. A hug.

I didnt really get hugs after what happen and this is kind of the first time this happen to me.

"Thank you so much Kal...." i said.

"You welcome El." He said. That is the first he called me el again. "Looks like you brought your skateboard. Wanna skate?" He ask with a smile.

"Sure"

We skate for a minute.

"Oh my god i cant beat that!! Your so good at this..." i whined.

"Just tryyyy pleaseee" he said.

"Fine"

I tried the trick and ended up falling in his arms.

We laugh. I laughed.

"I miss that." He said.

"The what?" I ask him confuse.

"Your laugh..."he said. "I really miss you, you know."

"Im sorry for breaking up with you." I said with a chuckle.

"Its fine. I understand just dont forget i always love you." He said.

"I love you too."

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Im sorry for not updating im just busy in school cuz im gonna graduate in two weeks and im gonna be singing in school which is so bad cuz i hate people watching me hahsgeghw